What’s YOUR Phobia?

So we all have something we’re afraid of, right? And to that particular person the fear they have is serious! For instance, some people are afraid of clowns while to others having a fear of clowns is just silly. But to the person with coulrophobia (fear of clowns, I looked it up!) the fear is real!

There are MANY phobias that exisit! Here is a List of Phobias that I came across. Crazy right? I had no idea there were that many phobias out there!  And MINE is on the list. It’s a phobia that I’ve had since the 5th grade, possibly even younger than that. What’s it called, you ask?

Emetophobia. Yes, I have a fear of throwing up. I  remember one day when I was a child someone got sick and I went into a full on panic attack.

Now of course, no one LIKES throwing up. But to a person with emetophobia, when we throw up or if we see someone throw up we panic. I mean, PANIC. I know for me, my heart starts racing, my hands start shaking and I just feel out of control. The classic symptoms of an anxiety attack. At least for me, that is.

Over the years, I have gotten better at handling this fear. There was a time when I was a child that you couldn’t even mention the word “throw up”or “puke”, or “vomit” around me. It would throw me into a panic attack. However, as I’ve gotten older I’ve been able to better control it. I do take a medication for anxiety which helps a lot.

People with emetophobia will distance themselves from people who are sick. We will avoid eating certain foods that might make us sick. And a lot of women will avoid getting pregnant because of the fear of morning sickness. I’ve never been pregnant and because of this fear of mine, I don’t plan on becoming pregnant and having kids. Kids get sick. Kids will throw up. It’s inevitable. So I want to avoid it as much as I can.

It’s a very strange fear, I know. Trust me, I know how weird it is. But its something I’ve never been able to shake off. It’s something I’m going to live with for the rest of my life and I just have to make adjustments!

Anyways, just thought I’d share this.

What’s YOUR phobia?

If You Could See Me Now

I found out last Wednesday that a girl I went to college with was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer. The next day I found out that she passed away. She had only been diagnosed for a week. She was only 32. She left behind her husband, David, and their 3 young children.

I just don’t understand! Why would God allow this to happen? It’s something we’ll never know this side of heaven. And that’s where Bethany is now. Living it up with Jesus. I know that I will see her and all my loved ones who have gone on before me.

There is a song called “If You Could See Me Now” that is so pretty. A slideshow of pictures of Bethany was set to this song.

Our prayers have been answered
I finally arrived
The healing that had been delayed
Is now realized
No one’s in a hurry
There’s no schedule to keep
We’re all enjoying Jesus
Just sitting at His feet

If you could see me now
I’m walking streets of gold
If you could see me now
I’m standing tall and whole
If you could see me now
You’d know I’ve seen His face

If you could see me now
You’d know the pain’s erased
You wouldn’t want me
To ever leave this place
If only you could see me now

My light and temporary trials
Have worked out for my good
To know it brought Him glory
When I misunderstood
Though we’ve had our sorrows
They can never compare
To what Jesus has in store for us
No language can share

As long as we have Jesus, we have hope. 🙂


Jeremiah 29:11, life changes


As 2015 starts, I can’t help but wonder if this will be the year that something extraordinary happens to me. Is this the year God had in mind for me when I read Jeremiah 29:11?

I’m 31 years old and I live at home with my mother. Don’t get me wrong. I adore my mother but this is not how I pictured my life post college. I saw myself living on my own, with a stable FULL TIME job and perhaps even in a serious relationship.

Will this be the year that everything changes?

My relationship with God had its ups and downs in 2014. Things in 2015 are going to be a lot different. I am determined to make Him first in my life and am eager to learn more about Him as I dig deeper into my Bible.

I also have a tendency to dwell on the negative rather than the positive things in life. That’s going to change this year.

Another thing that’s going to change is my blogging frequency. I have a bad habit of starting something and then not finishing. I think my problem is that when I can’t get out what I want to say I just scrap the entry and start another task. I get distracted way too easily.

God has great plans for me. I am going to daily remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11 and realize that no matter the circumstance God is with me and His plans for me are going to be awesome.

Now if I could just exert some patience while things fall into place……

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