It’s been a long week. I haven’t slept much this entire week. A few hours at a time at best. I’ve been in pain from a tooth that needs extracting but since I don’t have insurance, or a job at the moment, I can’t see a dentist because they won’t work with me on payments. So luckily I had some penicillin left over from something else so I’m going to take that and ibuprofen. Hopefully I’ll get some relief soon. Because toothaches are one of the worst pains ever! I’d rather have my broken collarbone again. Or a kidney stone.
I also don’t do well with pain so I may be exaggerating some, lol. But pain is just not something I deal well with. Never have. Never will.
I’m reading a book called The Christian Atheist:Believing in God but Living as if He Doesn’t Exist. It’s by Craig Groeschel.
Ya’ll….it’s good! Definitely steps on my toes. A question he poses, “Are you putting your whole faith in God but living as if everything is up to you?” has really gotten me to thinking.
I find myself wondering if I’m living like this. I won’t lie, I struggle with whether or not I’m even saved sometimes. But another quote I came across (in a different book) actually made sense to me. “…the struggle itself is proof that God is very close to us…..it is a sign of our salvation. There would be no inner battle if we were truly lost.”
Think about it. If we struggle with our sin and wonder about our salvation we really have nothing to worry about because that “struggle” within us is the Holy Spirit convicting us. It’s when we stop becoming remorseful that we need to be concerned. When we can sin and it doesn’t even bother us…..that’s when we have a problem.
Verse of the Day: Jeremiah 29:13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”