I Choose You

I just finished reading “gods at war” by Kyle Idleman for the second time. The first time I read it, I didn’t really get much out of it. But that was because I wasn’t really living for the Lord the way I should have been. Now, having read it with fresh eyes, I learned so much. Everyone is worshiping something. We make gods out of everything. It’s time we choose who we will serve. And like the Point of Grace song says, “I Choose You!”


“I Choose You” by Point of Grace

All our mind’s attention
All our hearts affection
Every heart-cry, every rhyme
Everybody’s worshipping something

All our life’s devotion
Has been set in motion
Religions dozen for a dime
Everybody’s worshipping something

‘Cause that’s what we were made to do

And I choose You
All my attention, affection
And all my devotion’s for You
If everybody’s worshipping something
I choose You

You are beyond conception
Defying definition
And You knew me before time

Centuries of pagans
Idols fill the nations
But You are Lord to me and mine
Everybody’s worshipping something

‘Cause that’s what we were made to do…oh oh


Before I chose You, You first chose me
I worship You, You alone are worthy

You alone deserve it-all of my worship
Lord I choose You

Who will you choose?

gods at war

Hey y’all, I am rereading “gods at war” by Kyle Idleman and came across some quotes I’d like to share with you.

“Anything at all can become an idol one it becomes a substitute for God in our lives.”

“Idols are defeated not by being removed but by being replaced”

“When we look to someone other than God to complete us and define our lives, it’s idolatry.”

“What we sacrifice the most for has the potential to become a God replacement.”

“What you are searching for and chasing after reveals the god that is winning the war in your heart.”

Kyle Idleman has a way with words that really hit home with me. This book has really opened my eyes to any “gods” I may have in my life. And I do.

My God is a jealous God who wants ALL of me and nothing less. He sent his SON to DIE for me so I owe Him everything!

This book is a must read! All of his books are!


Well, turns out I am prediabetic. My doctor called me this afternoon to let me know. Not something I really wanted to hear but hey, what are ya gonna do? It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have been surprised, with my eating habits.

Just means I need to change my diet up a bit. Not going to be easy that’s for sure.

Not easy….but doable. I don’t want to end up with another health problem and with THIS, I can reverse it.

I could use a lot of prayer right now as I attempt to change things up a bit. I’m going to need a bunch of encouragement as I attempt to make these dietary changes.

Mom’s doing well! She should be in rehab for about 7-10 days and then she’ll be home! I know she’s ready to be back in her own bed. She’s doing so well! I’m so proud of her. Can I just take a minute to let y’all know how strong of a woman she is?? Because she is. She’s always been such a strong, Christian woman.  I love her dearly.

Keep praying for her though as she continues to go through therapy. Pray that she’ll remain strong. She’s going to have down days, I’m sure, but pray that she will keep her spirits up!

Goliath Must Fall

I picked up a new book today called Goliath Must Fall by Louie Giglio, who apparently has multiple books out. I’ve never heard of him. But this book looks really good. So who knows? I may have another author to read. 🙂

In Goliath Must Fall, pastor Louie Giglio uncovers a newfound twist in the classic story of David and Goliath. The key to living free from out giants is not better slingshot accuracy but keeping our eyes on the one and only giant slayer-Jesus. Put your hope in him and watch Goliath fall.

“Fix your eyes on the size of your God, not the size of your giant.”

I can’t wait to get into this book!

Mom is doing well! She will be transferred to rehab tomorrow. I’ll be taking her. She’ll stay there 7-10 days and then come home! She’s doing amazing! I guess after 5 surgeries, she should be doing well, right? LOL. She’s a pro at this now.

She’s been getting therapy twice a day at the hospital, which is really helping. And she says the food isn’t half bad either, lol. Which is saying something considering it’s hospital food and let’s face it….. hospital food doesn’t always have the best reputation.




Mom’s Surgery

Hey ya’ll! So my mom had surgery yesterday (10/23) to have her left knee replaced…..again. This is the second revision she has had to have on this knee. She did extremely well! And the new doctor is confident this time it will stick! 🙂 She will be in the hospital until Thursday and then be transferred to a rehab center for a couple weeks. She’s already doing so much better. And I mean, who wouldn’t? She’s a pro at this by now.

I’ve been in the weirdest of moods the past several days. I’m not anxious, per say, but I’m not exactly calm either. It’s the strangest of things.

My doctor upped my dosage on my Lyrica today but I can’t get it from the pharmacy until the stupid prior authorization goes through. I’ve been on Lyrica for months now. The only thing different is the dosage so why in the world is my insurance not wanting to pay? Hopefully it goes through soon though. I’ve been having a minor flare up the past couple of weeks with the fibro.

I had so much more that I wanted to write but I’m having the hardest time focusing today. (stupid ADHD) So maybe later on I’ll be able to get back on here.

Just wanted to give ya’ll an update!


Fallen World


“I only fear that I don’t have enough time left to tell the world that there’s no time left.” —“Forgive Me” by Group 1 Crew

We live in such a fallen world.  Every single day a tragedy takes place. The news is filled with nothing but reports of shootings. It’s scary!

Which is why we MUST tell as many people about Jesus as we can! People NEED Christ. I just don’t understand why people can’t see how GOOD Jesus is! How GREAT He is! He loves us so much and we reject him daily.  I just don’t understand it.

And with all this violence in the world, with all this ugliness and darkness……it’s just going to get worse!

We MUST be a light in this darkness! Matthew 5:14 says “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden.” then in verse 16 it says “Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in Heaven.”

I want to love people with a compassion like Jesus has for us. A fellow blogger once said “Because we are loved undeservedly, we need to love unreservedly in return.”  (afracturedfaithblog.wordpress.com)

We may be the only Jesus people see. We need to show them the grace and love that Christ showed us. Who are we to accept God’s grace and then refuse to give it to others???



Grace is Greater, part 2


I’m currently on Chapter 8 of this book by Kyle Idleman. Ya’ll, it’s amazing. Here are a few more quotes I’ve come to love:

  • Grace is a two way street. Receiving it from God but refusing to give it to others isn’t an option. Grace flows.
  • Grace is always greater
  • If God’s forgiven your sins, you can’t continue keeping track of the sins of others.
  • If you refuse to forgive and keep the person who sinned against you locked in a prison of your bitterness, guess who’s paying? You are. You’re the one losing sleep. You’re the one whose stomach hurts. You’re the one whose relationships are being infected by bitterness.
  • We’re never more like God than when we forgive

There are so many more but I want to encourage you to read this book. In fact, read all of his books. He is fantastic!

I struggle with the bitterness and anger towards a certain person in my life. I finally sat down yesterday and wrote this person a letter, expressing how I have been feeling. I realized that I’ll never truly experience freedom in Christ as long as I continue to harbor this bitterness.

This person is not a Christian and my behavior has NOT been Christlike whatsoever. How can I expect to win this person to Christ if I’m not showing Christ’s love towards them?

I’m not the same person I was 6 months ago. God has totally gotten a hold of my heart and has been convicting me of this bitterness and anger.

I don’t know if this person has read the letter yet but that’s not the point. I have finally released this situation to the Lord and am letting Him take over. I can now enjoy more freedom in Christ by releasing this bitterness.

God gave me grace. I must extend grace to others.




Lord Move, or Move Me

I don’t have the words today but this song does.

“Lord Move, Or Move Me” by FFH

I can’t find the words to pray, I’m a little down today
Can You help me, Can You hold me?
I feel a million miles away, And I don’t know what to say
Can You hear me anyway?

What I need is for You to reach out Your hand
You have taught me no matter what You’d understand

Lord move in the way, that I’ve never seen before
Cause there’s a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I’m drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.

I’ve looked every where to find a simple peace of mind
But, I can’t find nothing on my own
So I gotta leave myself behind, take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto

Lord I know the only way is through this
But Lord, I know I need You to help me do this


Lord move in the way, that I’ve never seen before
Cause there’s a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I’m drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with Thee
‘Cause I am weak, but Lord, You are so strong
And You know it’s been way too long
It’s been way too long

Lord move in the way, that I’ve never seen before
Cause there’s a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I’m drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move)…


Grace is Greater


I’m reading a book by Kyle Idleman called Grace is Greater. He’s the author of the books Not a Fan and The End of Me. I love his writing. He gets down to my level and explains things in simple terms.

I like to highlight and write down quotes when I’m reading books like this. A couple of quotes I’ve come across so far:

  1. God’s grace is compelling when explained but irresistible when experienced
  2. Grace explained is necessary but grace experienced is essential
  3. When a broken, busted and wrecked life collides with Jesus, it’s a beautiful thing.

and my absolute favorite so far:

“The worst thing that could happen is that you spend your life trying to outrun God because you think He’s chasing you to collect what you owe—-when he’s really chasing you to give you what you could never afford.”

I’m only on Chapter 3 but as always with his books, I’m hooked. He has a way of drawing me in that not many authors can do…with the exception of my favorite fiction writer, Karen Kingsbury. 🙂 Her books are amazing!

God LOVES you! And he WANTS to give you eternal life. He’s not chasing you to force you to pay something you owe. He’s chasing you to give you something we can never earn on our own: GRACE!



Be Still


I struggle with the “being still” part. Mostly because I’m bipolar and ADD so it’s hard to sit down and just listen.  I’m not trying to make excuses. It’s just hard to be still sometimes! Like today, for instance. My mind is currently going a million a miles a minute while I’m writing this. I have so much I want to say but I end up forgetting and writing something completely different.

Today is World Mental Health Day. As a sufferer of bipolar disorder, severe depression and anxiety, today is a special day. It’s a day to bring awareness to all mental health illnesses.  It’s a day for global mental health education, awareness and advocacy against social stigma.

One thing I cannot stand is ignorance. So many people have no knowledge of mental health illnesses and won’t do their research. Instead, people tend to judge and make snide comments regarding a person’s mental state. And that drives me crazy! (no pun intended, lol)

But in all seriousness, people really need to educate themselves on mental health. People with mental health problems are all around us. You may even surround yourself with people who suffer.

If you know of someone who is suffering and not getting help, please try to encourage them to. It can save lives. With the proper medication and therapy, most people can live a full life. I’m on 4 different medications and sometimes we have to adjust the dosages and sometimes even change out a medication but it HELPS! And if it helps then that’s all that matters!

Okay, so I didn’t intend to write about all that, lol.

Back to my topic of “being still.” It’s hard and I struggle with it but when I DO stand still and truly listen for God, I am overcome with a sense of peace that everything will be okay with Christ on my side.

If we would just “be still and KNOW” that “He IS GOD!” things will change for the better! I truly believe that!

I do need to be honest though: Being a bipolar Christian can be exhausting.