God’s Not Dead


…He’s surely alive!

I found this movie at Walmart the other day for $3.96 so I had to get it! I’ve seen it before and have been wanting to buy it so naturally I scooped it up when I found it for this price, lol.

This movie is great. If you haven’t seen it I highly recommend it.


“After he refuses to disavow his faith, a devout Christian student (Shane Harper) must prove the existence of God or else his college philosophy professor (Kevin Sorbo) will fail him.”



I always wonder if I would have the courage to do what Josh does in this movie. It’s easy to say “yeah I could do that.” But actually doing it is another thing.

Matthew 10:32-33 says “So everyone who acknowledges me before men I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in Heaven. But whoever denies me before men I also will deny before my Father who is in Heaven.”

That’s a scary thought!

Would you have the courage to take a stand like Josh does in God’s Not Dead?



Being Jesus Online

So yesterday in the mail I received some booklets I had requested from the Discovery Series on various topics. (They’re FREE!)

One of them was: Being Jesus Online, Biblical Wisdom for a Wired World.

The topics discussed in this particular booklet were:

  • What Would Jesus Tweet?
  • The Heart of the Matter
  • Turing on the Right Filters
  • Clicking Share

I’m just going to discuss a couple of them but this topic was very eye-opening and really made me think about the things I post online.

In “What Would Jesus Tweet”, the author shares his thoughts on whether Jesus would have a social media account in today’s age. What would He share? What would He tweet? How would He relate to His “friends” and “followers” and to those who disagreed with Him?

This thinking, in turn, led to thoughts about his own personal tweets, posts and comments. According to Dennis Moles, the author, “If Jesus is the ultimate revelation of God then shouldn’t His actions and attitudes serve as a guide and example for every area of my life–even my use of social media?”

In “Turning on the Right Filters” Moles makes a good point by saying that “not all moments that can be shared should be shared.”

As followers of Christ, we represent Him in everything we say and do…..and share online. Whether we remember it or not, “we are always representing Jesus.” Moles reminds us that just like the first disciples “we have been sent out into the world to spread God’s message of hope and life…..and “because the world sees our lives and doesn’t just hear our words it is our responsibility to think twice before hitting send.”

Moles goes on to say that representing Jesus in digital space is “difficult” “What may be common sense, self-evident, funny or helpful to us, may be frightening, rude, offensive, or confusing to someone else.”

This booklet was really helpful and really opened my eyes. If you want to check this one out and read up on other topics visit the Discovery Series site.



I haven’t been feeling too well the past couple of days and this morning I woke up with my head pounding…..stuffy AND runny nose (seriously, make up your mind, nose) and overall yuckiness. It’s sinuses, I’m almost sure of it.

I’m sick for another reason too….my Tar Heels got slaughtered last night by Michigan State. I didn’t even finish watching the game it was so pathetic.

I already had a doctor’s appointment scheduled for today so I’ll probably be put on something to help this sinus infection. Yay, antibiotics. (detect sarcasm?)

I’m on chapter 4 of One Way Love by Tullian Tchividjian (seriously, how do you even pronounce his last name??) and it’s really good so far!

“It’s when we come to the end of ourselves that we come to the beginning of grace.”

“Doing the right thing with the wrong motivation reveals deep unrighteousness not devout righteousness.”

A quote by T.S Elliot: “the last temptation is the greatest treason: to do the right deed for the wrong reason.”

Alright y’all, I would write some more but I’m just feeling awful. I hope to write some more later.





Dark Side-Kelly Clarkson

This is probably my favorite Kelly Clarkson song. LOVE the words and the message. I don’t know why but I woke up today in a “mood.” So I decided to throw on some Kelly Clarkson and this song came on!
There’s a place that I know
It’s not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It’s hard to know
It can become
If you give up
So don’t give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me? Ohh
Everybody’s got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody’s a picture perfect
But we’re worth it
You know that we’re worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Thorn in my flesh


Some days are just a huge struggle. Seriously, the struggle is real just trying to get out of bed. My mind races with incomplete thoughts, I’m constantly restless and I just have no energy to function. Welcome to a day in the life of someone with bipolar disorder and ADHD and other health problems.

Is this the result of some unconfessed sin in my life? No, I don’t believe so. Could God heal me completely? Absolutely? But do I think He will? No, I don’t think so. This is my “thorn in the flesh.” God is using my mental illness to draw me closer to Him. He’s trying to tell me that His grace is sufficient.

Unfortunately, there are people out there who believe mental illnesses are the result of a lack of faith or some unconfessed sin. I do not hold this stance.

Why is there such a stigma regarding mental illness in the church? Why are people so afraid of it? Tell me, is having a mental illness any different from a physical illness?

When a person is suffering from diabetes, people have no problem with that person seeing a doctor and being treated for that particular problem. But when a person is diagnosed with a mental illness, there must be unconfessed sin. Either that or the person’s faith is not strong enough.

I had someone tell me that once. When they heard that I was bipolar they actually looked me in the eye and said that my faith wasn’t strong enough. Basically I needed to “pray it away.”

MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES DO NOT DISCRIMINATE! It CAN and DOES happen to every day people. People who are strong in their faith. People who are weak in their faith. People who don’t HAVE faith. It does not matter!

I know for a fact that Jesus loves me unconditionally. Meaning, he loves me despite my flaws, despite my health issues. He loves me.

Do I believe that I could wake up tomorrow completely healed from all my health ailments? Absolutely! But I also believe God uses these things to draw people closer to Him. And that is what He is doing with me.


My health problems are my “thorn in the flesh.” I have come to terms with that. God is using my health issues for good. I may not know what that is right now but I have accepted the fact that I’m going to have these health issues the rest of my life. And I grow closer to God every single day. 🙂

Crazy Love


So I decided on Crazy Love by Francis Chan.  It’s amazing. I’m already on Chapter 6.  One thing Chan mentions that has stuck with me is this:

Talk about stepping on my toes! The more I get into this book the more I have asked myself, “Do I love God like I should?” “Do I find myself running to him constantly and not just when I want something?” “Am I ‘in love’ with Jesus?”

The book has a website that you can go to and watch video intros of each chapter. I’ve been doing that before each chapter and has found that it helps me better understand the chapter!

I highly recommend this book and I’m only halfway finished with it! Check out the website at http://www.crazylovebook.com. You won’t regret it!



When I come across a quote from someone that really speaks to me, I write it down on an index card and either hang it up on my wall or file it in my quotes box that I have.

I thought I’d share some of these quotes with you.

“Either God’s Word keeps you from sin or sin keeps you from God’s Word.” Corrie ten Boom

“We can’t stop the Adversary from whispering in our ears but we can refuse to listen and we can definitely refuse to respond.”  Liz Curtis Higgs

“A Christian is held captive by anything that hinders the abundant and effective Spirit filled life God planned for him or her.”   Beth Moore

“We don’t have time to waste our days!”  Louie Giglio

“Because we are loved undeservedly, we need to love unreservedly in return.”  Stephen Black, blogger (@afracturedfaith)

“I want to love people with a heart of compassion and see and love people as Jesus does.” Masey McLain

“You are NOT what others think you are. You are what God KNOWS you are!” Shannon L Alder

“We need to STOP giving people excuses not to believe in God.” Francis Chan

“Our actions are seen by people but our motives are monitored by God.” Franklin Graham.

“Unless there is WITHIN us that which is ABOVE us, we will soon yield to that which is AROUND us.”  Unknown

“The future lies before you like a field of driven snow, Be careful how you tread it for every step will show.” Unknown. 


Random Thoughts…..

I’m not 100% sure but I think I have a kidney stone. Wanna know the ironic thing? I’ve been drinking less and less of soda lately. Soda is my downfall but after learning I was prediabetic I have seriously cut back on my soda intake.

I used to get kidney stones frequently so I am very familiar with the pain. Currently I have a heating pad on my left side with the hopes of lessening the pain. Heat really helps. Now I just need to chug more water to flush it out!

I’ve been very irritable the past couple of days. Very restless and antsy and just downright emotional. It’s one big rollercoaster of emotions. My psychiatrist has upped my dosage of Abilify to 15mg a day so we’ll see if that helps my moods any. I sure hope so because I hate this feeling.


I finished Goliath Must Fall and it was great! I am now looking for my next book to read. It’s a toss-up between One Way Love by Tullian Tchividjian (grandson of Billy Graham) and Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I’m eventually going to read both but I just can’t decide which one to read first, LOL.  Has anyone read either of these books? What did you think?

Mom is doing well! She got her staples removed on Tuesday! The doctor was very impressed with how she’s doing. She’s well ahead of where she should be. Well that’s no wonder……this wasn’t her first rodeo with knee replacement. This was her 3rd surgery on that left knee! She’s been through this many times before. She knows the drill! LOL

I think I know what I want to write about in my first book. I don’t have much information yet but I want to write about being a bipolar Christian. Doesn’t that sound like an oxymoron? 🙂 I need to do extensive research so it’s going to take some time for this book to come into existence but I am very excited about starting this. It should be very interesting. 🙂



How about you all? How’s your day going?