Day 1: Nothing, Nada……

I made the decision yesterday to step out in faith and pursue my writing career.  It’s time I got serious about it. Sooooo…….

Day 1: nothing, nada. Those cobwebs covering ideas I have are thick and I can’t seem to break through them.  I have sat at my laptop and stared at the blinking cursor and sighed.

I need inspiration.

I’ve been told to “write what I know.” Problem with that? I’m not quite sure I know what I know! LOL 🙂

It’s going to take some time, I know this. But I’m going to fight through the horribleness that is writer’s block and get some writing done today. I WILL do it.

Maybe I’ll go back through old writings and drudge up some ideas from there.

Stepping Out in Faith

 

A fellow blogger is taking a step towards a goal of his: writing his first novel. He will be the first to admit he doesn’t know the first thing about writing a novel. But the words, the story, it’s all in his head and he knows he must get them out. I admire that.

I’ve wanted to be a writer since the 4th grade. We were asked to write a short essay on what we wanted to be when we grew up. I knew right away I wanted to be a writer. I used to write all kinds of short stories about bunnies and other barnyard animals, I’m sure.

But somewhere along the way I let my dream fade away. I still wrote from time to time, poems mostly,  but I never actively sought out how to make a career out of writing.  Writing, which once was a huge passion of mine, sort of dwindled away. And I let it.

I tried to write from time to time but eventually writer’s block kicked in and I let it stay.

Until now. I’m refusing to let it stay any longer. I’m dusting off the cobwebs of ideas in my head and am FINALLY going to get serious about this writing thing.

Writing is really the only thing I really know how to do semi well. 🙂 🙂

So pray for me? Pray I can find the inspiration needed to take this journey?

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

 

Grace Addicted Jesus Freak

Okay so I’m almost finished with this book called Goliath Must Fall by Louie Giglio. It’s taken me a little longer than usual to finish it because of mom being in the hospital and all (she’s HOME now!) but this book is great! I’d recommend it!

We all have giants in our life that must come tumbling down like Goliath did in 1 Samuel. Whether that giant is fear, rejection, addiction, anger……they MUST come down. They MUST fall!

I’m on Chapter 7 which is dealing with addiction. Normally, people think addiction is strictly being addicted to drugs or alcohol. Nope, sorry (not sorry) to burst your bubble. Addiction is ANYTHING that takes the place of God. It can be an addiction to spending money. It can be an addiction to social media. Or even an addiction to accomplishments. Whatever takes the place of God in our lives is an addiction that must fall.

Giglio does mention that there is a good addiction: being a grace addict. Being addicted to Jesus. Becoming a Jesus Freak. People tend to act that being a Jesus Freak is a bad thing. But like Giglio says, “what we need in the church today are lots and lots more of Jesus Freaks. Those who say ‘Jesus you are my only hope and I’m clinging to you my whole life long.”

Of course, when I read the term Jesus Freak I immediately started humming the song by DC Talk and quickly opened up Spotify to place it. Now I’ve got DC Talk playing in the background as I type this.

If you’ve never heard the song, I urge you to check it out. Here are a few lines from the song:

What will people think
When they hear that I’m a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it’s true
I don’t really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain’t no disguising the truth

And there IS no disguising the truth! Why would we want to disguise Someone as wonderful as our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ??? He died in our place so we wouldn’t spend an eternity in Hell. ALL we have to do is accept his gift of grace.

He’s not going to MAKE us choose. He wants to leave that up to us. But c’mon! What could be better than an eternity in HEAVEN with our Maker?? Where there will be NO MORE PAIN (PRAISE THE LORD), NO MORE SICKNESS, NO MORE EVIL!

Call me crazy, call me a freak all you want! I get to spend eternity with my Maker. What about you?

Self involved

I finally admitted to my mom today that I realized I can be self involved. I’ve never opened up like this before and of course the tears started flowing.

I think I’ve known I can be self involved for quite some time now but was just in denial. I mean, c’mon who wants to admit a flaw like this? But God has been working in my heart and has made me realize I need to stop focusing on myself and start focusing on others.

It’s not easy to open up like this. I don’t like feeling like this, feeling vulnerable. I don’t want others to see me like this. But God has spoken to me and it’s time I addressed this flaw.

Hi, my name is Leigh and I am self involved. I think of myself first. I tend to think of others only after I am comfortable myself. Do I mean to do this? No!! I don’t mean to be self involved! I don’t WANT to be self involved. This is going to be hard to overcome at first but by the grace of God I will overcome this flaw.

I only have one request of all of you who read this blog: please pray for me that I can stop focusing on myself and allow God to work in me.

Unfinished

 

Sometimes I want so badly to write a blog post and the words just won’t come. Then I’ll hear a song and it so perfectly sums up what is on my heart.

I’ve been struggling with some things lately and this song has just made me realize that God’s not finished with me just yet. He’s still working on me. 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

“Unfinished” by Mandisa

Not scared to say it, I used to be the one
Preaching it to you, that you could overcome
I still believe it, but it ain’t easy
‘Cause that world I painted, where things just all work out
It started changing and I started having doubts
And it got me so down

But I picked myself back up
And I started telling me
No, my God’s not done
Making me a masterpiece
He’s still working on me

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna complete it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
I’m just unfinished
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished

I know His history and the kind of God He is
He might make it a mystery
But He’s proving I can trust in Him
And yeah, I believe it

So I can pick myself back up
And keep on telling me
No, my God’s not done
Making me a masterpiece
No, my God’s not done

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna complete it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
(Yeah)
I’m just unfinished
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through

Still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
He’s still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me

He started something good and I’m gonna believe it
He started something good and He’s gonna complete it
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished
I’m just unfinished
(I’m just unfinished)
So I’ll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain’t through
I’m just unfinished

Still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
He’s still workin’
Still, still workin’ on me
Oh, yeah
I’m just unfinished

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