Posted in 2018, adhd, bipolar, christianity, Faith, Jesus, love

Single but Not Alone

See the source imageI will be 35 in June (yuck) and I’m single. 10 years ago this would have bothered me. But as I grow closer to the Lord I have realized that I don’t need anyone BUT God.

10 years ago I was in a relationship that didn’t end well. He essentially broke up with me because of my bipolar disorder. He said he couldn’t handle it anymore. I remember looking at him and crying, “You don’t have to handle this. I have to deal with this the rest of my life. I just need you to BE there for me.”

Nope, he ran. But you know what I said? Fine. And I moved on without him. I haven’t had a relationship since.  Honestly, I have moments, small moments when I wonder if I’ll ever find someone but then I spend time with God and it all goes away. I am content being single. God fills that void.

If I’m being honest, I will say this: I am very self-conscious about my appearance. See, I have very bad dental problems due to my medications causing tooth decay. Fibromyalgia also contributes to my dental problems Half my teeth are falling out. Therefore, I don’t smile much and when I do it’s a closed mouth smile. If something makes me laugh I cover my mouth with my hand. I WILL NOT take pictures anymore because I just can’t stand to look at myself. I have to get dentures but I can’t afford them since I don’t have a job or dental insurance. (Anyone wanna start a GoFundMe page? I’m KIDDING!)

I think that’s the biggest reason why I don’t put myself out there and try to find someone.

I’ve accepted that this is how I am, this is how I look and everything else doesn’t matter.

GOD is all I need and I’m going to spend as much time with Him as I can and in the meantime, if He has someone planned for me, and I meet him, then so be it! But I’m not looking actively for anyone because I want God first in my life. Maybe I’ll be single forever, like Paul was. Maybe I’m not meant to have a significant other because it’ll be a distraction for me. And as we all know, I get distracted pretty easily. (Stupid ADD)

See the source imageI will say this again: God has great plans for me….for YOU….for everyone! If only we would stop, be still and listen to His voice. He’s calling for you and for me……NOTHING can change God’s love for you. 🙂

Posted in giving, godliness, money

Godliness with Contentment

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I was reading in 1 Timothy 6 this morning and came across this verse. A few verses down it also says:

For the love of money is the root of all evil; which while some coveted after they have erred from the faith and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

See the source imageThis verse has been taken out of context so many times. People will say that money is the root of all evil. That’s not what it says. It says the love of money is the root of all evil. Having money is not a sin. It’s when it becomes our idol that it’s a sin.

We must learn to be content with what we have. Simple as that. We live in a greedy world. So many people will spend spend spend because they think they’ll be happy with all this stuff.

And that’s all it is….it’s stuff. We can’t take it with us when we die!

Matthew 6:19-21 says

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven where moths and vermin do not destroy and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

The things on earth? They eventually die away. We are to store up our treasures in heaven! That’s where our eternity lies if we are followers of Jesus!

We must be content with what we have.

But godliness with contentment is great gain

1 Timothy 6:6