On Trial

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*If you were on trial for being a Christian would there be enough evidence to convict you?*

 

I heard a variation of  this question years ago for the first time and it’s remained with me.

It always gets me to thinking about my relationship with God.

If I was arrested today for being a Christian, would there be enough evidence to convict me?

Do people see Christ in me throughout my every day life or am I just going through the motions?

Matthew 7:21-23 says:

²¹ “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. ²² Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ ²³ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

I don’t know about you but that passage has always frightened me. To have God turn to you and tell you He never knew you? Talk about scary!

I’m going to be raw here for a moment. Here is an excerpt from my prayer journal:

Am I living a life that pleases You, God? Or am I just trying to work my way into Heaven? I want to be a soul on fire for You! I want to glorify You in all I say and do.

Why is having a relationship with You so difficult for me sometimes? Why do I struggle with this?

Have I truly given my life to You? Is this Satan’s way of attacking me?

I long to live a life that glorifies God.  I want people to see me on the streets and think to themselves, “There’s something different about her.”

Satan definitely knows my weaknesses and is using them against me. I came across a great quote one day that helps me when I battle Satan like this:

There would be no inner battle if we were truly lost.

So on days like today when I’m “doubting my salvation”, I just read this quote and it reminds me that I AM saved. Satan is just trying his level best to make me believe otherwise.

Another quote I came across and I have hanging up in my room is this:

One of the key ways you can tell you’re saved is when your faith is continually leading you towards repentance and Jesus is continually bringing about change.

Matt Chandler

(I’m struggling with the putting words into sentences today (stupid Fibro fog) so if any of this sounds off, I’m sorry.)

Would there be enough evidence to convict you if you were arrested for being a Christian?