Meet Matty, everyone! I am currently watching her for a friend while she is out of town!
Matty is a peekapoo and is just so adorable that I had to share this picture! I absolutely LOVE this picture of her. I got her looking right at the camera! I tried getting some other pictures but nope, one was enough for her, LOL.
We’ve been on walks, where she thinks she’s big stuff against other dogs. She’s 14 years old yet still acts like a puppy sometimes! She loves to growl at her tail and run in circles when she needs to go outdoors! She can sneeze on command which I find so hilarious that I’m constantly making her sneeze.
I think she has sniffed every square inch of my house, lol. I’m sure going to miss her when it’s time for her to go back to her home!
She’s definitely got me wrapped around her little paw! I’ve let her sleep with me and the first night I didn’t get much sleep because I was so afraid I’d push her off the bed but each night has gotten better. She lets me sleep til at least 6 in the morning then wastes no time letting me know it’s time to go out!
She has her little blanket she sleeps with because she gets super cold.
If you want to write, you can.
Fear stops most people from writing, not lack of talent.
Who am I? What right have I to speak?
Who will listen to me?
You are a human being with a unique story to tell.
You have every right.
I came across this quote the other day and immediately printed it out so I could have it in my face every time I sit down at the computer.
I am facing some big time fears about this writing project of mine. I’m at the tail end of researching, just waiting on a book I ordered to come in. These fears haunt me. Satan is whispering in my ear, “You can’t do this, you don’t have a story to tell…..” But I DO! (EVERYONE has a story to tell)
My fears are that I won’t get my point across due to my inability to stay focused. I struggle constantly with being unable to focus. I get distracted easily too.
I haven’t been working on this book as much since I started back to work but it’s still going to happen. I’m not giving myself a timeline or anything. It’ll be finished when it’s finished!
It doesn’t help that writer’s block has appeared to settle in.
But then I read this quote and it makes me realize that there IS a writer deep down in me. I just need to nourish it and bring it to the surface. I’ve got to fight the writer’s block with all that I have and push it down, deep down. Lock it up, throw away the key, LOL.
I want to write for the Lord and bring others to Christ. I want His life evident in my life and that when people see me, they see Jesus.
I have every right to write. And if you’re an aspiring writer, so do you!
2 In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world.2 (This was the first census that took place while<sup class="footnote" style="box-sizing:border-box;font-size:.625em;line-height:22px;position:relative;vertical-align:top;top:0;" data-fn="#fen-NIV-24976a" data-link="[a]”>[a] Quirinius was governor of Syria.)3 And everyone went to their own town to register.
4 So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David.5 He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child.6 While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born,7 and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.
8 And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night.9 An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified.10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people.11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord.12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven,
and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”
15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”
16 So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.17 When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child,18 and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them.19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.20 The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.
I worked Tuesday through Saturday this week and I survived! Let me tell you, coming back to a retail job during the holidays was probably not the BEST idea but I made it work!
I bought an activity tracker to track my steps for $10 today! I just wanted to have some sort of tracker that tracked my steps so I could see how many steps a day I’m getting. And I know it’s not 10,000, lol. But now that I’m back in retail, I should get tons of steps lol. Maybe not 10,000 but I’ll set a reasonable goal and go from there.
I’m still working on my book though it’s going to take a little longer now that I’m back at work. This week by the time I got home, I just didn’t have the energy to sit down and write. I just need to learn to adjust, is all.
Prevail Church HAS A LOCATION!!! I REPEAT, PREVAIL CHURCH HAS A LOCATION!
I know I’ve mentioned this but it was made official just a couple of days ago! (I wasn’t aware it wasn’t official when I first announced it, whoops, my bad)) We are very very excited to start on this new journey. Our launch date is March 3. If you are in the Norfolk, VA area PLEASE look us up! Check out our website Prevail Church We would love to have you come! For those of you NOT in the area, continue to pray for us as we start working real hard after the holidays to get things ready for Launch Sunday.
Well, I started my venture back into the working world on Tuesday. I’m back at my old job at Barnes and Noble. It was a pretty good day and I was surprised at how much I remembered! (It’s been 3 years since I last worked) My feet were killing me by the end of my shift and my whole body ached (stupid fibromyalgia) but overall it felt good to be back in the working world. It’s been such a struggle these last few years.
I may not blog as much, at least for a short time until I can get back into the groove of working.Please pray for me as I slowly get back into the swing of things! It’s going to take some time, I know.
Thought of the day: “Delay does not negate the promises of God” (Nicky Gumbel) I read this in my devotions this morning and really liked it. Just because God doesn’t answer our prayers in OUR time doesn’t mean He still isn’t working in our lives!
My mental health problems began when I was a teenager. One night I suffered a major panic attack that scared the mess out of me and my mom. I honestly thought I was going to die.
I was trying to fall asleep when all of a sudden, out of nowhere, this overwhelming sense of terror just enveloped me. My heart was racing way too fast as if I had just finished running a marathon. My hands began to seize up into fists that I couldn’t pry open.
What was going on? Was I dying? I was scared to death and didn’t know why. Why was this happening to me?
I remember my mom telling me that when she placed her hand over my heart to see how fast my heart was racing it felt like “a herd of horses galloping.” She tried to pry open my fists but to no avail.
She took me to the doctor where he diagnosed it as a severe anxiety attack and prescribed me an anti-anxiety medication. This particular medication, however, INCREASED my panic attacks. I was having them multiple times a day! So I was placed on another medicine which seemed to help.
After suffering from these panic attacks, I fell into a deep depression. I couldn’t understand why I was suffering from these attacks. I was in my senior year of high school. This was supposed to be the greatest year of my high school career. I was on the verge of becoming an adult!
But no, I enjoyed none of that. Instead, I lost so much weight that my sister and my mom were convinced I had an eating disorder but I didn’t. I just stopped eating because I just wasn’t hungry. My jeans sagged on me, I retreated to my room most days and kept to myself. I hated life at this point.
And the only thing I can say is that the panic attack is what started my downward spiral. And it gets worse….much worse…..but that’s a story for another day.
I’m currently in the research stage of writing this book. Let me tell you….it’s hard work! I was a little afraid I wouldn’t be able to find much on being a bipolar Christian but I have found TONS of information that has been a huge help to me.
Mental health and Christianity CAN coexist! I, as well as many others, are living proof of this! Mental illness should be treated just like a physical illness. The brain is an organ and it can fail too! This is what people need to realize!
I’ve borrowed many books from the library on writing my first book. I need to know the “ins and outs” of how to write a book. I need to know what to expect when I start this process. It’s going to be lengthy, I am well aware of this fact.
I found a book called “The Business of Being a Writer” by Jane Friedmann that I can’t wait to start!
I’ve also found a couple of books that are similar to the type of book I want to write. It’ll help me get a feel of how to outline the book and how to start.
I’m very excited about starting this new journey. So as I journey into this new adventure please continue to pray for me!
Stephen over at Fractured Faith Blog has inspired me! I am going to write a book! I’ve been wanting to write a book for a while now but I just couldn’t seem to get started. But after seeing Stephen reach his goal with his book, it has inspired me to get started on my dream.
So what is this book going to be about?
I’m going to write about the struggles of being a Bipolar Christian. A lot of people think that mental health and Christianity can’t coexist but I am here to tell you that they can! Mental health does not discriminate against religion and beliefs. It can affect ANYONE, Christian or not.
So right now I’m strictly in the research phase. I’m going to research, research and research about this topic.
So please, if you would, say a prayer for me as I begin this journey!
I’m struggling again. Struggling to find things to write about, struggling with my confidence, struggling with life in general.
Life has a funny way of sneaking up on us and swiping our feet out from under us. We struggle to get back up and that’s just where Satan wants us.
But our God is bigger than our struggles. He’s always there with us, through the struggles, through the frustration and through the doubts.
We need to keep clinging to Him because only He can get us through these rough times in our lives.
I’ve been out of work for 3 years now due to my health problems. I have been denied social security disability 3 times now.
I am left with no other choice: I must find a way to start working again. I honestly don’t know how I’m going to do it, my body is failing but I know God is with me through all of this. And I know He has a plan for me.
Yesterday I decided to go to the mall and visit Barnes and Noble, the store I was working at until I had to quit. I ran into a manager who I worked with and half jokingly she asked me if I could work Sunday. We laughed and then I asked her if they were actually hiring and she said “YES! Go see Lindsey! (another manager)
I wrestled with whether or not I should go see her but in the end I decided to give it a try. So I found Lindsey and she told me to put in my application and she would call me in to “interview” me (meaning she wasn’t going to actually interview me but would just find out when I was available and would put me on the schedule.)
So now I’m waiting on that phone call or email to find out if I’m really going to start working there again.
I’m scared. What if I can’t do it? What if my health starts getting in the way again?
But my God is bigger than all my worries. He’s definitely got this in control even though I feel out of control.
So don’t worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.