What Happens When God Doesn’t Answer Our Prayers The Way We Want Him To?

24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Mark 11:24

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matthew 7:7-8

I’m going to be straight up honest here: I prayed these verses nearly every single day while I was waiting to hear if I would be awarded disability. And so you can imagine my disappointment when I was denied disability. Was I upset? Yes. Was I confused? A little, yes. I mean, c’mon…I had prayed over and over. And the Bible SAYS if we go to God and ask Him, He will give it to us.

But we fail to miss something here…God is not a vending machine. We don’t get to pick and choose and expect Him to just give us everything we ask for. Sometimes it’s just not the right time and sometimes He says “No” to our requests because it’s not in His will.

I am currently facing a decision about whether to file for disability again. I have been back to work 7 months now and I have had to call out a lot or leave work early. My body just can’t handle the stress of working. I come home from work most days in extreme pain and am miserable. And lately, I’ve been having some cardiac issues. My heart rate increases to about 150 beats a minute while I’m just merely shelving books at work. I am out of breath a lot. So I have a cardiologist appointment on the 13th of August. Back in 2005, I was hospitalized for a condition called Wolff Parkinson White Syndrome. Here’s a little summary of what that is:

Wolff-Parkinson-White (WPW) syndrome is a condition in which there is an extra electrical pathway in the heart. The condition can lead to periods of rapid heart rate (tachycardia).

Normally, electrical signals follow a certain pathway through the heart. This helps the heart beat regularly. This prevents the heart from having extra beats or beats happening too soon.

In people with WPW syndrome, some of the heart’s electrical signals go down an extra pathway. This may cause a very rapid heart rate called supraventricular tachycardia.

I have been told that there is like a 5% chance that this problem can return once the procedure to remove the extra electrical pathway has been performed. And since all the weird and rare things seem to happen to me, I wouldn’t be surprised if this was the case, LOL!

But back to answering prayer…God knows what is best for us. He loves us! He knows what we can handle and what we can’t. He WILL answer our prayers….we just have to be patient. And when He says “No” to a particular prayer request…we must accept it and move on. Because He has better things in store for us. Maybe the answer of “no” is only temporary. Maybe God is saying, “not right now, child.”




And So The Journey Begins…

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I made a decision today. A decision that has been a long time coming.  I am going to do my level best to lose some weight. A lot of weight, to be honest. I want, no, I need to lose about 60lbs. I have gained so much weight over the past several years. Some of it is due to my medications. Two of them cause weight gain. But the majority of it? Yeah, that’s totally on me. But there is no need to constantly beat myself up over this. What’s done is done. Can’t change the past.

It’s going to be hard along the way, I know this. With all my chronic health problems, I’m going to have days where I feel I can’t do it, where I feel I can’t go on. But I won’t be on this journey alone. God is going to be with me every second, every step of the way.

So, with that said, could you all please say a prayer for me? Pray that I will remain motivated and stay disciplined throughout this journey.


Which Type Of Soil Are You?

Then he told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.

Matthew 13 3-8

18 “Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: 19 When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path. 20 The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. 21 But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 22 The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful. 23 But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”

Matthew 13:18-23

What Type Of Soil Are You_

In my devotions this morning I read the parable of the sower. As I was reading I began thinking, “Which type of soil am I? Am I the good soil? Do I hear the Word and immediately let it take root, growing and producing fruit? Or do I let it fall on rocky or thorny ground, letting trials and persecutions bring me down, choking what little fruit may have been there?

What type of soil are you?





What Matters Most

What Matters Most

Everything that we allow into our minds, hearts and lives—everything that we spend our time and money on—has an impact on how we grow, or don’t grow, spiritually.

Craig Groeschel, “Soul Detox”


T.R, over at Inside Cup wrote a really powerful post entitled My Phone Is More Important Than God? that really got me to thinking about how much time I spend away from God because I’m always focused on other things, especially my phone. She hit the nail on the head!

How many times have I lost my phone and have a total freak out moment while trying to find it?

Or how many times have I freaked out over my stats and why my blog isn’t growing?

Christian bloggers and all users of social media be aware of the gratifying sense of stats. Comments. Likes. Followers. Numbers. 

We become accountable to ourselves and the world before being accountable to God. 

T.R Noble, Inside Cup

Why am I not freaking out over someone coming to know Christ? Why am I not freaking out over how much time I spend with the Lord? THOSE are the things that matter!

Spending time with the Lord is what should matter most!

The more time we spend on our phones or the more time we obsess over blog stats is more time that we grow apart from the Lord. 

Our phones, if we’re not careful, can become an idol.  Our obsession with anything other than Christ can become an idol.  (See Who (Or What) Are You Worshiping?)

T.R’s post really opened my eyes! Please, check out her blog!

Not In The Mood…

I haven’t been in the mood for writing these past few days. On Tuesday, I left work early and headed to Urgent Care because I was experiencing chest pains and my heart rate was higher than it should be by just shelving books at work. Plus, I have a history of heart-related issues so I thought I should get checked out.

Urgent Care did an EKG and even though it was normal they decided I needed to go to the ER where they could do more extensive tests. And they called an ambulance because they didn’t feel comfortable with me driving.

Turns out the chest pain was muscular, not cardiac, (thank the Lord!) and the heart palpitations were due to the fact that my potassium levels were low. I had no idea heart palpitations were a symptom of low potassium, did you?

So they sent me home with prescriptions and instructions for follow up care.

That was Tuesday. The next day I was off and while I wish I could have stayed home and rest I had no choice but to take my car to get repair work because my car failed inspection last week. When your car fails inspection, you get 15 days to get it fixed. So yeah, I had to spend my day off waiting nearly 4 hours to get my car fixed. But it got fixed, so yay!!

And now it’s Thursday, the 4th of July! Happy 4th! I was off today as well and have spent it doing hardly anything.

I hope you all have had a better week than me! Tell me something exciting you’ve done this week!