Posted in Faith, fear, Jesus, quotes

Blogging For Jesus

I came across a quote the other day that really got me to thinking.

As a Christian blogger, you are a digital missionary.

I never thought about that before. But it is so true! As Christian bloggers, we have a duty to reach out to the lost. We have a duty to inform them of Christ’s love for us and what He sacrificed in order for us to find freedom.

For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved! But how can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in Him if they have never heard about Him? And how can they hear about them unless someone tells them? And how will anyone go and tell them without being sent? That is why the Scriptures say, “How beautiful are the feet of messengers who bring good news?

Romans 10:13-15

Christian bloggers….we are blogging for Jesus! We should be wanting to see others come to know the Lord.  As bloggers we are the digital feet!

Does this mean we might offend someone? Unfortunately, yes.  But we still need to get the truth out there for the whole world to hear. We must not live in fear of offending someone.

Sometimes we will have to step out of our comfort zone in order to reach the lost. It will feel uneasy at first, we might be tempted to give up but if we just persevere, God will see us through the uneasiness.

We can’t live for the approval of men. Living for the approval of men will let us down. Living for the approval of men will most definitely disappoint us.

Living for the approval of people will keep you from living for the purposes of God.

Craig Groeschel

 

Posted in Landen's Story, prayer

Prayer Request

Hey friends! I have a big prayer request for you all.

I ask that you remember me on Wednesday and Thursday as I am having some heart tests performed. On Wednesday, I am having an Echocardiogram and will be given a heart monitor to wear for two days. On Thursday, I’m having a Nuclear Stress test.

I think I mentioned a while ago that in 2005 I was admitted to the hospital because it was found that I had Wolfe Parkinson White syndrome or WPW.  Basically with this condition, ” there is an extra electrical pathway in the heart. The condition can lead to periods of rapid heart rate (tachycardia).” The doctors performed a catheter ablation, which “zapped” the extra electrical pathway.

It is very rare but the condition can come back. It can even cause Atrial fibrillation (Afib)

Anyways, with all that said, lately, I’ve been having issues with racing heart and palpitations, with shortness of breath. So these tests are going to see what’s going on with my heart.

So please say a prayer for me that we figure out what’s going on!


Update on Landen (as of 8 hours ago)

Landen is stable. He had a stable day and night yesterday for the most part.

He has been in pain and very uncomfortable at times so he has needed more meds. Thankfully, he is resting comfortably at the moment.

They are concerned about a few things so they are doing an echocardiogram, ultrasound of his stomach, and possibly an endoscopy today.

This journey is exhausting and the fight has been long. We are tired but we will continue persevering and seeking God for Landen’s healing. Please continue persevering in prayer with us. God is able! #landensstory

“To You, O Lord, I lift of my soul. O my God, I will trust in You…” Psalm 25:1-2a

 

Posted in Landen's Story, prayer

Landen Update

Hey y’all! Just wanted to share an update on Landen. Keep on praying for this sweet boy!

The plan is to extubate tomorrow! He is breathing mostly on his own. He is on very minimal vent settings.

He is getting CRRT (Continual Renal Replacement Therapy) today and we hope to go to intermittent hemodialysis on Sunday or Monday.

If all goes well next week we hopefully will be transported back to Levine Children’s the following week.

He has been more awake and they are weaning sedation more today.

Please continue praying! Specifically that everything goes well with extubation, his lungs would heal, kidneys would function, stem cells would produce healthy t-cells, all viruses would be eliminated, and NO MORE SETBACKS! God is able! #landensstory

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What’s Your Story?

What's Your Story_

I’m curious to hear your stories about how you came to Christ! I love hearing how Christ has changed a person!

Here’s my story:

I have been in church since I was 4 years old. I went to a Christian school up until 4th grade. I’ve heard about Christ nearly my whole life. I even participated in Bible Sword Drill and (not trying to boast here) made it to our Nationals. I had all the head knowledge of Christ, I could recite Bible verses at the drop of a hat.

I was saved, was I not? I was a Christian, right? That’s what I told myself.

Then the darkness came. I fell into a deep depression during my senior year of high school and I hated life. Gone were the days of reading my Bible and praying to God. I just didn’t care anymore.

Then it came time for me to go to college. I attended a local community college my first year and then after much prodding from my mother, I enrolled at the Free Will Baptist Bible College (now known as Welch College). I told her I would give it a try.

During spring break in 2003, I came home for a week and at church that Sunday, we had an evangelist come and speak and he said this one thing that turned my whole world around. He said this one thing that made me immediately realize I wasn’t a Christian like I’d been pretending to be. He said this:

You can be 99% sure of your salvation but your still 100% lost.

It clicked with me! I’d been leading a life full of hypocrisy. I wasn’t saved. I never had been. And just like that I headed to the altar, tears streaming down my face. I gave my life to Christ on March 16, 2003. I went back to school a new person. The weight was off my shoulders. The weight I didn’t really realize I was carrying. I was FREE!

Now of course that doesn’t mean life got suddenly easy. Satan tries his very best to bring me down and on some occasions he almost has. But with Christ on my side, I’ve been able to pull myself back up every time.

In 2008, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I should have seen it coming. I had all the symptoms back in high school but was only diagnosed with depression.

It’s been a struggle…having a mental illness and trying to live a Christ-like life. Satan knows my weaknesses and does everything He can think of to twist my mental illness in order to lead me astray from the Lord.

But I believe God will use my bipolar disorder for good. It says in Romans 8:28:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

So how about y’all? What are YOUR coming to Christ stories?


Quick update on Landen. This was posted about 6 hours ago:

Landen is overall the same. His bp got low overnight and his heart rate has been high. About to meet with his doctor to discuss those things.

Thankfully, part of the day he was awake and responding to us. Brayden and Hannah Grace got to visit, and you could tell he was excited to see his brother and sister.

At this point, it is just a lot of waiting. Please pray for strength and patience. Continue persevering in prayer for Landen. Thank you for your love and support. #landensstory

Posted in Landen's Story

Update On Landen

Just wanted to give an update on Landen…this is from this morning.

Good morning…Landen had a stable night and we all rested well. He got very uncomfortable with his ventilator yesterday but thankfully we were able to get that under control and meet our goals of weaning some of his settings. Today, they will not be weaning any more vent settings as his lungs are not ready.

We are still waiting on cultures from his blood and fluid off of his lungs.

They will begin trying feeds today at a slow rate to put something in his gut.

Dialysis is supporting him nicely and he is almost to his dry weight.

He is on track to get his stem cell boost next week.

Please continue praying for his lungs, kidneys, fungal infection, bkv, and a day of steps in the right direction. #landensstory

Keep on praying!

 

Posted in adhd, anxiety, bipolar, christian living, depression, Faith, fear, mental disorders

Yes, I’m a Christian and I’m Bipolar…

I touched on this topic a little over a year ago but decided to add to it in case a new follower needs to read it.

Yes, it is possible to be a Christian, to have the love of the Lord in you and still struggle with a mental illness. The two CAN coexist! Because guess what? Mental illness? It doesn’t discriminate. It can strike anyone at any given time. It’s a chemical imbalance.

It’s taken some time to get this blog post out because as soon as I sit down at my computer to start writing, I start losing focus. I become agitated because I can’t get my thoughts out the way I want them to.  Oh, I have many many thoughts racing through my head but they won’t come out on screen. It’s a bunch of jumbled thoughts, not making sense.

So what do I do in times like these? I wish I could say I always turn to the Lord to help me (and I do most of the time) but every once in a while I sit and have a pity party. “Why me? Why do I have to be like this? Why can’t I just be normal?” I cry and cry.

I realize having a pity party is definitely not the best way to handle it but try telling me that when I’m having an episode. It doesn’t work. I eventually find my way out of the pity party and then turn to the Lord. (I know, I know…..I should have turned to God first….and believe me…I try! But sometimes Satan is stronger than me and pulls me down.)

So why can’t I just turn to the Lord the second I feel myself slipping? I wish I had an answer for you. I don’t know. I honestly have no idea.

I’m getting better at turning to the Lord in these times. I haven’t had a bad episode in quite some time. The Lord is slowly working in me and I’m becoming stronger.

The other day I was doing my devotions and came across Psalm 27. The first verse is one of my favorites:

1. The Lord is my light and my salvation–so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?

The Lord is ALWAYS with me even when I’m not with Him! He’s there for me when I’m suffering. He’s there when life is good! He’s my light! He’s my salvation!

The last verse has become a favorite of mine too.

14. Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

If you’re suffering…if you feel lost and confused…turn to Jesus. He will never fail you.

 

Posted in prayer

Pray for Landen

Image may contain: 1 person, smiling, standing and shoesI have a special prayer request for all you prayer warriors out there. The adorable boy in the picture is Landen. He’s 9 years old and the nephew of a dear friend of mine.

Landen has Primordial Dwarfism and has been in and out of the hospital for different health issues. He is currently in the hospital and has seen good days and bad days.

He really needs our prayers. Here is the latest update(about 8 hours ago) from his parents:

Landen is stable this morning but things are very serious. They are doing a bronchoscopy to try and determine if he has a viral, bacterial, or fungal infection in his lungs. We are not out of treatment options but none of the options are good options because what they would need to use would further damage other organs. He will be on 24 hr. dialysis and is getting pheresis now. Doctors are doing all they know to do.

I am so thankful for the great doctors and nurses taking care of Landen but I remind us that our hope is in Jesus. It is up to Him. We trust Him. We know He loves us and loves Landen more than any of us do. We know He can speak the word and heal Landen but if He chooses differently, He is still our Hope. We will still trust Him.

Isaiah 41:10, “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”

PRAY for Landen and our family. God is still able!

 

You can follow his story on Facebook… #landensstory

Please join me in praying for Landen and for his family!

Posted in adhd, christianity, Faith, grace, Jesus, love, mental disorders, Uncategorized

Repost: Thorn in my flesh

**This is an old post from 2017 but I feel the need to share it again.**

My Thorn In the Flesh

…..Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinithians 12:7-10

Some days are just a huge struggle. Seriously, the struggle is real just trying to get out of bed. My mind races with incomplete thoughts, I’m constantly restless and I just have no energy to function. Welcome to a day in the life of someone with bipolar disorder and ADHD and other health problems.

Is this the result of some unconfessed sin in my life? No, I don’t believe so. Could God heal me completely? Absolutely? But do I think He will? No, I don’t think so. This is my “thorn in the flesh.” God is using my mental illness and other physical illnesses to draw me closer to Him. He’s trying to tell me that His grace is sufficient. And it is!

Unfortunately, there are people out there who believe mental illnesses are the result of a lack of faith or some unconfessed sin. I do not hold this stance.

Why is there such a stigma regarding mental illness in the church? Why are people so afraid of it? Tell me, is having a mental illness any different from suffering from a physical illness?

When a person is suffering from diabetes, people have no problem with that person seeing a doctor and being treated for that particular problem. But when a person is diagnosed with a mental illness, there must be unconfessed sin. Either that or the person’s faith is not strong enough.

I had someone tell me that once. When they heard that I was bipolar they actually looked me in the eye and said that my faith wasn’t strong enough. Basically, I needed to “pray it away.”

MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES DO NOT DISCRIMINATE! It CAN and DOES happen to people every single day. People who are strong in their faith. People who are weak in their faith. People who don’t HAVE faith. It does not matter!

I know for a fact that Jesus loves me unconditionally. Meaning, he loves me despite my flaws, despite my health issues. He loves me.

Do I believe that I could wake up tomorrow completely healed from all my health ailments? Absolutely! But I also believe God uses these things to draw people closer to Him. And that is what He is doing with me.

My health problems are my “thorn in the flesh.” I have come to terms with that. God is using my health issues for good. I may not know what that is right now but I have accepted the fact that I’m going to have these health issues the rest of my life. And I grow closer to God every single day. 🙂

 

Posted in prayer

A Huge Decision to Make

Hey everyone!

I have a HUGE prayer request. I have a very important decision to make by tomorrow, August 9th and I’m struggling with it. Pray that God gives me the wisdom and courage to make the right decision.

Thank you so much.

I hope and pray that you all are well!