Disappointed Yet Determined

So back in July I posted about starting my weight loss journey. I am ashamed to say that I haven’t see any results because, well let’s face it, I haven’t worked hard enough. I now have 3 medications that cause a lot of weight gain and fibromyalgia also causes weight gain so losing this weight is going to be almost impossible. Well, it feels impossible to me.

I had been keeping a steady weight the past few weeks but today when I went to my doctor, I had gained 5lbs since my last visit.  Needless to say I was disappointed in myself.  It really caused me to open my eyes and face the reality of many other health problems I am in danger of having if I don’t do something about my weight.  Diabetes.  Sleep Apnea. Heart disease. High Blood Pressure…..

I stared in horror at the scale in my doctor’s office. Ironically, I was seeing my psychiatrist today so when the first question out of her mouth was, “How are you feeling?” I almost lost it. I told her, “well I was feeling pretty good until I stepped on that scale!”

So. It’s time for a change. A big change that is going to result in a good outcome. 

I will start walking more, I will try to do sit ups/crunches (that’s going to be a sight,LOL) I will give up my love of sweets and soda and replace them with more healthy choices. Basically, I will do what I can to lose this excess weight..

I discovered some Bible Plans on the YouVersion app dedicated to losing weight. Currently I’m going through The Daniel 14-Day Plan. Oh!! And yesterday I went to the library and checked out Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst which I can’t wait to dive into. It’s about satisfying your deepest desire with God, not food. I’m hoping to gain a lot of insight from this book.

Some Scripture I’ve found helpful:

• 1 Corinthians 10:31 “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do everything to the glory of God”
• Psalm 10:17 “You, Lord, hear the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them and you will listen to their cry.”
• Proverbs 16:3 “Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established.
• James 4:17 “If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.

I realize this last verse seems a little harsh but it stepped on my toes. I ­know I need to lose weight and by ignoring it, it is sin. I truly believe this. It says in Romans 12:1 that we are to present our bodies as a sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God…” 

By eating what I want and letting my weight get out of control, I am not presenting my body that is pleasing.

So, with that said….I’m starting this journey with fresh eyes and a determination to lose at least 60lbs.

I don’t ever want to see that number on the scale again.