I stepped onto the scale the other day and nearly lost it when I saw my results. There’s no way! It’s lying. I can’t weigh that much! But as I stepped off the scale, I was forced to face reality. Yes, I indeed weighed this much and it is no one’s fault but my own. (and the 4 meds I take that cause weight gain.)
I guess the last time I read “Made to Crave” I wasn’t paying attention. Well, it’s to reread it again! This time I’ll pay closer attention and will take notes.
Poor food choices are sabotaging my body, my mental energy and even my spirit. Food has become like a drug.
I obviously wasn’t motivated to lose the weight the first time around. But something is different this time. That number I saw on the scale has really scared me. Like, really. I’m at risk several health issues, including diabetes (which runs in the family), heart disease, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc.
I need to take a lot better care of myself. This time, I’m including God. He alone is the only One who can help me truly feel good about myself.
I didn’t include God the first time. Oh, I thought I had. I read the book, didn’t I? I prayed, right? But my heart wasn’t truly in it now that I’ve had time to think about it.
I’m addicted. Sugar is my drug of choice, so to speak. I just “have” to have chocolate. I just “have” to have sweets. Brownies, cookies, you name it. I’m attracted to sweets. Oh and soda. That’s another downfall of mine. Soda. I’m a Coke kind of girl, I love it. I have recently switched to Coke Zero, no sugar, no calories. But the one thing I need to start doing? Drinking water. Lots and lots of water. Problem is I can’t seem to drink a lot. I make excuses for why I don’t drink water like I should. “Oh, I can’t eat pizza and drink water along with it. It just doesn’t taste good. I “need” that glorious taste of soda.
We want the results but have no desire to put in the work required.
Ain’t that the truth? We want to look good, we want to feel good when around others who can stuff their faces and not gain a pound. (Seriously, that isn’t fair! lol) We have this tendency to compare ourselves to others but we have to stop doing that. It’s only going to make us feel worse. We have to have the desire to lose the weight, without comparing ourselves to others.
Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our misguided cravings to the only One capable of satisfying them.
I’m on chapter 8 of the book and this time I’m getting so much more than I did the last time. And why? Because I’m including God in it this time. I was wanting to lose weight just so I looked good. But I’ve got to change that mindset and realize that God loves me, weight and all. He knows I want to lose the weight and He’s trying to tell me that with His help I can overcome my struggles.
Yes, I want to lose weight. But this journey is so much more than just that. It really is about learning to tell myself NO and learning to make wiser choices daily
I have to see the purpose of my struggle as something more than wearing smaller sizes and getting compliments from others…it has to be about something more than me.
Another thing that is different this time is that I have an accountability partner. She would like to lose weight as well and so we are going to check in with each other 1-2 times a week and also pray for one another that we would stay focused on losing the amount of weight we’ve decided on.
Galatians 6:9 tells us this: Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.