I did, in fact, decide to appeal the denial of my disability case. I have a lawyer and I have another hearing on January 17th. I am asking everyone to please pray for a favorable outcome this time around. My health isn’t getting any better and I have been dealing with flare-ups with my fibromyalgia and bipolar disorder.
The following is a post from July 29th, 2019 after I learned I was denied disability.
24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
I’m going to be straight up honest here: I prayed these verses nearly every single day while I was waiting to hear if I would be awarded disability. And so you can imagine my disappointment when I was denied disability. Was I upset? Yes. Was I confused? A little, yes. I mean, c’mon…I had prayed over and over. And the Bible SAYS if we go to God and ask Him, He will give it to us.
But we fail to miss something here…God is not a vending machine. We don’t get to pick and choose and expect Him to just give us everything we ask for. Sometimes it’s just not the right time and sometimes He says “No” to our requests because it’s not in His will.
I am currently facing a decision about whether to file for disability again. I have been back to work 7 months now and I have had to call out a lot or leave work early. My body just can’t handle the stress of working. I come home from work most days in extreme pain and am miserable. And lately, I’ve been having some cardiac issues. My heart rate increases to about 150 beats a minute while I’m just merely shelving books at work. I am out of breath a lot. So I have a cardiologist appointment on the 13th of August. Back in 2005, I was hospitalized for a condition called Wolff Parkinson White Syndrome. Here’s a little summary of what that is:
Wolff-Parkinson-White (WPW) syndrome is a condition in which there is an extra electrical pathway in the heart. The condition can lead to periods of rapid heart rate (tachycardia).
Normally, electrical signals follow a certain pathway through the heart. This helps the heart beat regularly. This prevents the heart from having extra beats or beats happening too soon.
In people with WPW syndrome, some of the heart’s electrical signals go down an extra pathway. This may cause a very rapid heart rate called supraventricular tachycardia.
I have been told that there is like a 5% chance that this problem can return once the procedure to remove the extra electrical pathway has been performed. And since all the weird and rare things seem to happen to me, I wouldn’t be surprised if this was the case, LOL!
But back to answering prayer…God knows what is best for us. He loves us! He knows what we can handle and what we can’t. He WILL answer our prayers….we just have to be patient. And when He says “No” to a particular prayer request…we must accept it and move on. Because He has better things in store for us. Maybe the answer of “no” is only temporary. Maybe God is saying, “not right now, child.”