Category Archives: christianity

Should’ve Been Me

This song says it all!

Should’ve Been Me by Citizen Way

I’ve read the story, I’ve seen the movie
Given to charity, and tithe my ten percent
These I remember
But I so easily forget
All this years never heard it like this
Should’ve been me, should’ve been us
Should’ve been there hanging on a cross
All of this shame, all of these scars
Should’ve been stains that were never washed
Why do I hide, why do you try
Over and over and over again
I guess it just leaves saying thank God
It leaves me saying thank God, thank God
For the Should’ve been
I live a good life, I love a great wife
Our kids are beautiful
We got friends down the street
If I’m so thankful, why do I easily forget
Oh, that you died for all of this
When it should’ve been me, should’ve been us
Should’ve been there hanging on a cross
All of this shame, all of these scars
Should’ve been stains that were never washed
Why do I hide, why do you try
Over and over and over again
I guess it just leaves me saying thank God
Leaves me saying thank God
For this heart you changed
This soul you raised
My God for taking my place
When it should’ve been me, should’ve been us
Should’ve been there hanging on a cross
All of this shame, all of this scars
Should’ve been stains that were never washed
It should’ve been me, should’ve been us
Should’ve been hanging there on a cross
All of this shame, all of these scars
Should’ve been stains that were never washed
Why do I hide, why do you try
Over and over and over again
I guess it just leaves me saying thank God
Leaves me saying thank God
I guess it just leaves me saying thank God
For the should’ve been
For the should’ve been

Recovering Redemption

I’m reading this book by Matt Chandler and Michael Snetzer and it’s amazing! Here are just a few of the quotes I’ve already copied down:

  • “the heart of our problem is the problem of our hearts”
  • “trying to earn God’s pleasure DOES NOT WORK”
  • “as long as you keep looking to yourself as your next best solution, you will never stop vacuuming up the mess you leave behind.”
  • “while the good news of the gospel may not appeal to everyone, the bad news of the gospel still applies to everyone.

I’m sure I will come across many more as I get further into this book. It’s very thought provoking and they do not have any problem being blunt. Toes will be stepped on. Mine already have been.

Verse of the day:

Colossians 3:23 “And whatever you do, do it heartily as to the LORD and not to man!”

I struggle with this because I’m such a people pleaser. I strive to make sure I make others happy. But you know? No matter how hard I try I will NEVER please EVERYONE! And actually, I need to be working to please God and NOT man anyway.

 

 

Come As You Are

This song by Pocketful of Rocks really speaks to me. It’s not about what your wear or where you are….you can come to Jesus AS YOU ARE!

He’s not mad at you,
And He’s not disappointed.
His grace is greater still
Than all of your wrong choices.

He is full of mercy
And He’s ever kind.
Hear His invitation,
His arms are open wide.

You can come as you are with all your broken pieces,
And all your shameful scars.
The pain you hold in your heart, bring it all to Jesus.
You can come as you are.

Louder than the voice
That whispers “you’re unworthy”,
Hear the sound of love
That tells a different story.

Shattering your darkness
And pushing through the lies,
How tenderly He calls you,
His arms are open wide.

You can come as you are with all your broken pieces,
All your shameful scars.
The pain you hold in your heart, bring it all to Jesus.
You can come as you are.

You can come as you are.

You can come as you with all your broken pieces,
All your shameful scars.
The pain you hold in your heart, bring it all to Jesus.
You can come as you are.



You see? Jesus loves you. Every single part about you, He loves.  Come to Him.

Matthew 11:28 says “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.” Jesus doesn’t want you to wait to come to Him until you think you have it together. No, quite the opposite! Come to Him NOW. He’s waiting for you with arms wide open!

If I can pray for you about anything, please just let me know. Leave a comment and I will pray for you!

Our God Reigns Here

I recently discovered John Waller’s music. It’s amazing! Here is one of my favorites!

Our God Reigns Here

Spirit of doubt you have no place here
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
Spirit of fear you have no place here
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
You’re not welcome here so go, just go

Spirit of doubt you have no place here
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
Envy and jealousy you have no place here
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
Go back from whence you came

‘Cause our God reigns here, our God reigns here
We claim this ground in Jesus’ name
‘Cause our God reigns

Our God reigns here, our God reigns here
The battle’s won, have no fear
‘Cause God reigns here, He reigns here our God

Anger and rage, guilt and shame
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
Depression, anxiety, addiction, infirmity
I command you to leave in Jesus’ name
Oh, go back from whence you came

‘Cause our God reigns here, our God reigns here
We claim this ground in Jesus’ name
‘Cause our God reigns

Our God reigns here, our God reigns here
The battle’s won, have no fear
‘Cause God reigns here

There’s no doubt He has overcome the world
And God reigns here
There’s no doubt He has overcome the world

‘Cause our God reigns here, our God reigns here
We claim this ground in Jesus’ name
‘Cause our God reigns

Our God reigns here, our God reigns here
The battle’s won, have no fear
The battle’s won, have no fear
The battle’s won, have no fear
‘Cause God reigns here

There’s no doubt He has overcome the world
And God reigns here
There’s no doubt He has overcome the world
And our God reigns

A New Me

I have made huge decisions in my life as of late. The most important one is to fall in love with Christ. I have had nothing but a lukewarm relationship with Him and y’all,….let me tell you something…..it stunk. I only cried out to Jesus when it was convenient for me. I only praised Him when it was something pertaining to ME. Basically, I was using Him. IF that’s even possible. I was being selfish.

Well that’s changing. I have rededicated my life to Him and am working hard on becoming a woman of God. Will it be easy? Absolutely not. Will I be tested? Of course I will! But it will all be worth it in the end.

And now it’s time to take the focus off of myself and look outward to those who don’t know Christ as their personal Savior. I want people to see Jesus in me. I want them to question what’s the difference in me. I want to be ON FIRE FOR CHRIST!

So this blog from now on will be my journey in my walk with Christ. I don’t even know who reads this blog but hopefully it will be spread so others can see Jesus in me.

Because in the end…..it will have all been worth it. 🙂

Time for a change

Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt completely alone? I don’t know what’s going on with me but lately I have been feeling alone….even when people surround me. I hope I’m not starting to relapse back into my depression. It usually starts like this. *sigh* I need to focus on more important things.

I need to find my way back to God. I have been slipping lately. Satan has been attacking me non stop. I know that once I get my life straight with God this whole “alone” feeling will disappear. 🙂 I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and stop believing that God has abandoned me. It’s the opposite. I have abandoned God. And it’s time to make a change.

God is so good. Isn’t He?

It’s August!

Where in the world has 2012 gone? I can’t believe it’s more than half over!

Ugh, I’m going to be 30 next year. Not looking forward to THAT!

Today is Chick Fil A Appreciation Day. I’m planning on stopping in to support them. As a Christian, I support the biblical views on marriage. Marriage is between a man and a woman. Simple as that.

HOWEVER, just because I believe what I believe does NOT mean that I hate homosexuals. I don’t hate them. I just don’t agree with their ways. God loves EVERYONE and so should I. I can love a person and not agree with everything they believe in. Ya know?

I’m just tired of all the drama that is going on with Chick Fil A.

Bipolar Christian

Christians suffer from mental disorders as well. It irks me to no end when people claim that depression and other disorders are from a lack of faith. Lack of faith? Are you kidding me? Just because I’m a Christian does not excuse me from worldly problems.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2008. Once the initial diagnosis was made, everything started to make sense! My erratic mood swings, the constant depression and sadness, the anger. Oh the anger! It wouldn’t take much to set me off.

Now, through Christ and medication, I am coping with my disorder. I still have my down days but they are nothing like they used to be.