Posted in Faith, fear, prayer

Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear

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I need to confess something to you all. I struggle with praying out loud in a group of people. I get so wound up, fear grips me. I mean, it really grips me. I fear I’m going to say something wrong or stupid. I fear I’m going to stumble over my words. (I mean, hey, I do that in normal conversations, lol)

Like Moses, I’m terrible with words. (speaking them, that is) My tongue gets all tied up and a bunch of rambling comes out.

At Prevail Church, at the end of the service, we get into groups and we pray. We pray for boldness, for compassion. We pray for whatever needs to be prayed for. It’s a time to just pour our hearts out to God.

I listen to the words of those around me and wish I could pray like that. I wish I didn’t have this fear of corporate prayer.

Well, as we gathered into our groups, I could feel the Lord impressing upon my heart to pray. He did this several times. And several times I would open my mouth and then shut it. Open my mouth, shut it….and before I knew it, I had lost my chance. I let the Lord down. I just know He was up there just shaking his head at my fear of public praying.

Last night as I was just doing some reading and writing out my thoughts, I looked up and saw a sticker I have on a notebook that says, “Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear.” And I realized I really did let my fear overpower my faith yesterday.

Fear doesn’t come from the Lord. It says in 2 Timothy 1:7:

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Fear is of the world. Fear is not godly. When we feel that fear creeping upon us, we must fight back with our faith. Fight back with, not OUR strength, but GOD’s strength. Because if we try to do it all by ourselves, we won’t get far. We’ll succumb to the fear. Just like I did yesterday.

Like my pastor has said in the past….”we must step over fear to reach faith.” Faith OVER Fear!

What fear grips you? Give it to Jesus. He’ll never let you down. 

 

 

 

 

Posted in Landen's Story, prayer

Prayer Request

Hey friends! I have a big prayer request for you all.

I ask that you remember me on Wednesday and Thursday as I am having some heart tests performed. On Wednesday, I am having an Echocardiogram and will be given a heart monitor to wear for two days. On Thursday, I’m having a Nuclear Stress test.

I think I mentioned a while ago that in 2005 I was admitted to the hospital because it was found that I had Wolfe Parkinson White syndrome or WPW.  Basically with this condition, ” there is an extra electrical pathway in the heart. The condition can lead to periods of rapid heart rate (tachycardia).” The doctors performed a catheter ablation, which “zapped” the extra electrical pathway.

It is very rare but the condition can come back. It can even cause Atrial fibrillation (Afib)

Anyways, with all that said, lately, I’ve been having issues with racing heart and palpitations, with shortness of breath. So these tests are going to see what’s going on with my heart.

So please say a prayer for me that we figure out what’s going on!


Update on Landen (as of 8 hours ago)

Landen is stable. He had a stable day and night yesterday for the most part.

He has been in pain and very uncomfortable at times so he has needed more meds. Thankfully, he is resting comfortably at the moment.

They are concerned about a few things so they are doing an echocardiogram, ultrasound of his stomach, and possibly an endoscopy today.

This journey is exhausting and the fight has been long. We are tired but we will continue persevering and seeking God for Landen’s healing. Please continue persevering in prayer with us. God is able! #landensstory

“To You, O Lord, I lift of my soul. O my God, I will trust in You…” Psalm 25:1-2a

 

Posted in Landen's Story, prayer

Landen Update

Hey y’all! Just wanted to share an update on Landen. Keep on praying for this sweet boy!

The plan is to extubate tomorrow! He is breathing mostly on his own. He is on very minimal vent settings.

He is getting CRRT (Continual Renal Replacement Therapy) today and we hope to go to intermittent hemodialysis on Sunday or Monday.

If all goes well next week we hopefully will be transported back to Levine Children’s the following week.

He has been more awake and they are weaning sedation more today.

Please continue praying! Specifically that everything goes well with extubation, his lungs would heal, kidneys would function, stem cells would produce healthy t-cells, all viruses would be eliminated, and NO MORE SETBACKS! God is able! #landensstory

Posted in prayer

Pray for Landen

Image may contain: 1 person, smiling, standing and shoesI have a special prayer request for all you prayer warriors out there. The adorable boy in the picture is Landen. He’s 9 years old and the nephew of a dear friend of mine.

Landen has Primordial Dwarfism and has been in and out of the hospital for different health issues. He is currently in the hospital and has seen good days and bad days.

He really needs our prayers. Here is the latest update(about 8 hours ago) from his parents:

Landen is stable this morning but things are very serious. They are doing a bronchoscopy to try and determine if he has a viral, bacterial, or fungal infection in his lungs. We are not out of treatment options but none of the options are good options because what they would need to use would further damage other organs. He will be on 24 hr. dialysis and is getting pheresis now. Doctors are doing all they know to do.

I am so thankful for the great doctors and nurses taking care of Landen but I remind us that our hope is in Jesus. It is up to Him. We trust Him. We know He loves us and loves Landen more than any of us do. We know He can speak the word and heal Landen but if He chooses differently, He is still our Hope. We will still trust Him.

Isaiah 41:10, “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”

PRAY for Landen and our family. God is still able!

 

You can follow his story on Facebook… #landensstory

Please join me in praying for Landen and for his family!

Posted in prayer

A Huge Decision to Make

Hey everyone!

I have a HUGE prayer request. I have a very important decision to make by tomorrow, August 9th and I’m struggling with it. Pray that God gives me the wisdom and courage to make the right decision.

Thank you so much.

I hope and pray that you all are well!

Posted in church, Faith, grace, Jesus, love, prayer

March 16th, 2003

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March 16th, 2003 will forever be a special day for it is the day I let go and clung to Jesus and trusted in Him. Has it always been easy? No.

 

I was 19 when I became a Christian, despite having grown up in church. I went through life thinking I was saved, thinking I had it all together when in reality I was lost.

I basically had the head knowledge but none of it made its way into my heart.

I even attended a Bible College before I got saved. I honestly thought I was saved. Then I came home for spring break and we had an evangelist come and speak at our church.  He made a statement that has stayed with me all these years…..

You can be 99% sure (of your salvation) but you’re still 100% lost.

Basically, he was saying that it doesn’t matter how much head knowledge we have, if it hasn’t reached our hearts, we are still lost.

Do I doubt my salvation sometimes? Well, I’d be lying if I said no, that I never doubt it.  But Satan has a sneaky way of getting into my head and stirring up trouble. He whispers in my ear that I’m not good enough, that God doesn’t really love me, that I’m not really saved.

God is always with us even when it feels He is not. He doesn’t walk away from us, we walk away from Him.

I’ve been struggling lately but I’m slowly getting back on track. I appreciate all your thoughts and prayers.

I haven’t been writing lately but like my relationship with God, I’m slowly getting back into it.

I really do want to write a book but I’ve been neglecting it. Who knows how long it will take for me to get through the whole process but if it takes me years then so be it.


Prevail Church is taking off! We have been having a steady number of people week after week! Pastor Jonathan began a new series last week, entitled “My Story.” Here is the first sermon from that series!

 

Posted in anxiety, depression, Faith, fear, fibromyalgia, mental disorders, prayer, worry

An Apology

I would like to apologize to you all who read my posts. I haven’t been writing much lately and it just feels like I’ve lost my desire to write. I want to get it back but I don’t know how to do it.

I have been having issues with my fibromyalgia and not having my Lyrica for several weeks, leaving me in pain. I finally was able to get my medication but it will take a week or two to fully get back in my system.

I want to be completely honest with you: I’m struggling. Spiritually, Mentally, Physically. It’s so hard being a bipolar Christian.

This blog is supposed to be about me telling people about Jesus and lately I haven’t been doing that. I feel like a fraud.

I don’t want to shut down this blog. I want so badly to get back into the swing of things and be the person I was when I first started this blog.

So I’m going to dig deep into Scripture and pray that God will show me what I am supposed to do.

Pray for me, if you don’t mind.

Posted in bible verses, christian living, christianity, Faith, forgiveness, Jesus, love, prayer, redemption

Glorifying God

A life that glorifies God is a life that reveals God

Beth Moore

Does my life glorify God? In all that I say and do, does my life reflect Him? It’s a question I ask myself constantly.

Life can get overwhelming at times, we all know this. And in those difficult times, are we focusing on the Creator rather than the created? Is our focus half-hearted? Or does our light shine before men, oozing out Christ’s love for others?

14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

Matthew 5:14-16

We are called to lead others to Christ. We are called to love these people and show them Christ’s love. After all, Christ died for our sins. He literally took our sin upon Him. Why? Because He loves us so much. He loves us unconditionally and undeservedly.

Does our life glorify God? Or are we just going through the motions, just pretending? Pretending to be on fire for God? Do we act one way around our Christian friends and a completely different way around non believers? How will that bring others to Christ?

Christians are called to walk through the world with the heart of Christ.

Louie Giglio, “Goliath Must Fall”

I struggle with selfishness. I will admit that. But if I’m being honest with myself, being selfish is definitely not Christlike. Unfortunately, while I have selfish tendencies, I also tend to be a people pleaser. Kind of weird, huh?  I struggle with how and what people think about me and strive to please them and because of that I lose my focus on God.  I take my eyes off of Jesus and I start to sink like Peter did when he got out of the boat to walk on the water to Jesus. I should live in a way that pleases God and not man.

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Galatians 1:10

 

And whatever you do, do it heartily as to the Lord and not to men

Colossians 3:23

Now, as long as we live on this earth we will never be perfect. We will slip up from time to time. But thankfully we have a God who welcomes us back into His arms. His love is that strong. He IS love!

 

 

Posted in christian living, church, Faith, Jesus, prayer

Give Me Your Eyes

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see,
Everything that I keep missing,
Give your love for humanity.
Give me your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten.
Give me Your eyes so I can see.

I love this song by Brandon Heath.

I want to have a love for people like Jesus does. So many times, we can get wrapped up in ourselves that we never take the time to love other people. But we are CALLED to love others!

I want to love people with a heart of compassion and see and love people as Jesus does

Masey McLain

I’m tired of being wrapped up in myself and acting selfish. It’s time I put myself out there and love on others.


Prevail Church is slowly getting started! We had our first launch team meeting last night and we made commitments to getting on board with launching this new church. Is it scary? Yes, sometimes it can be. But God is with us and He promises never to leave us.

Our name for our church comes from the verse in Matthew 16:18: “ And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.

Check out our website! Prevail Church

Please continue to pray for us as we venture out on starting this new church. We still don’t have a location so please pray specifically that we find a location soon. We’ve been meeting in our pastor’s house for the time being but as we grow we’re obviously going to need a bigger meeting spot.

 

Posted in bible verses, christian living, church, forgiveness, grace, prayer

Turning the Other Cheek

When people hurt us….well, it hurts! (I know, super profound there, huh?)

But no, seriously, when people hurt us, it can cause us to lose ourselves for a little bit. We become down and depressed a little, maybe even angry. We sometimes lash out at the person, giving them an earful. (I know I’ve been guilty of this in times past.)

My church has been hurt lately. And there are people who are making sure we know it.  It has caused a great deal of discouragement and a little righteous anger, if I’m being honest. These people don’t seem to realize just how badly it hurts! The negativity they are spreading on social media…..it’s just downright mean!

The human nature in me wants to lash out, to yell, to scream, to retaliate. That’s what Satan wants me to do.

But I’m going to turn the other cheek. In Matthew 5:38-40, it says:

38 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’[a]39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well.

I don’t understand why this is happening but I do know that God wants me to react in a manner pleasing to Him. He doesn’t want me to give in to my human nature desires.

It’s hard for me, believe me. I am struggling with this very much. I want to comment back so badly. I have so many retorts for them.  But this will not please the Lord. He wants me to rise above. And I’m working on it. It seems that just when I’ve reached a point where I think I’m fine then I see other comments made. I actually had a former church member unfriend me and others from our church. It hurt so badly.

It shouldn’t be this way!! But it is.

And I’m turning the other cheek.