I’ve always struggled with my looks. I’ve never thought of myself as pretty. My self esteem has always been low. My confidence has always been almost non-existent. I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember.
I’ve gained some weight too. Apparently, fibromyalgia causes weight gain and the medicine I’m on FOR the fibro causes weight gain. Super. I’m determined to get the weight off but it’s a struggle.
And now that I’m struggling with dental problems, things have just gotten worse. I’m 35 years old and need dentures but can’t afford them. I have no dental insurance. I hate to smile these days because I am so embarrassed by how my teeth look.
But just this morning in my devotions, I was reminded that God doesn’t look at outward appearances like man does. In 1 Samuel 16:7, it says
….The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart.
It’s our inner beauty that counts. It’s what our heart looks like that really matters. God doesn’t look at our outward flaws.
I suffer from major self-esteem issues. Between my weight and my dental problems I honestly can’t stand the way I look sometimes.
But then I read verses like 1 Samuel 16:7 and it gets me to thinking that I need not worry because God is not looking at my outward appearance as man does but rather the nature of my heart.
I’m slowly working on losing the weight but right now there is not much I can do about my dental problems because I don’t have dental insurance and I’m unemployed due to my health problems. I need dentures in a bad way but it’s going to have to wait. I just need to stop worrying about what people may think about me when they see my teeth. It doesn’t matter, I keep telling myself. It doesn’t matter what people think. I’m beautiful in God’s eyes and that’s all that matters!
But alas, I am human and the negative thoughts tend to come back after a while. So it’s a daily struggle. Satan knows my weaknesses and he does not hesitate to use them against me.
But I take comfort in finding bible verses that help me realize that I’m beautiful in God’s eyes.
Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Isaiah 43:1 But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.