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Stop Remembering What God Has Forgotten

Do you have a tendency to remember your past sins that the Lord has already forgiven? Do you tend to harp on them?

I know I do. Sometimes I will harp on them, wondering how in the world God could forgive me. But here’s the thing: HE HAS!

If you have asked God to forgive you of your sins…..He has and He forgets them!

Psalm 103:12 says,

As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgression from us.

And look at Isaiah 43:25!

I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions for my own sake and remembers your sins no more.

Why harp on something that has already been forgotten?

I tend to harp on my past sins, thinking to myself “how could God forgive that?” I’m slowly learning to stop doing this. I’m slowly learning that when God has forgiven me of a sin, I am to do what he does: put it in the past and forget about it.

Is it hard? Well, yes, of course. It’s in our human nature to dwell on things. At least it is for me! 

But once God has forgiven our sins, we are FREE! Free from the bondage of sin. There is NO condemnation!

Romans 8:1-2 says:

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you FREE from the law of sin and death.

What can separate us from Christ once we become a believer?

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?……….No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus.

Romans 8:35, 37-39

Simply put, God loves you. And He longs to have a relationship with you. But until you confess your sins and become a believer, that sin you are harboring is separating you from Him.

Won’t you come to Him today?

 

Posted in christian living, christianity, Faith, song lyrics

Can They See Jesus?

Live in such a way that those who know you, but don't know God, will come to know God because they know you.

Do people see Jesus in you?

Do They See Jesus in Me
Joy Williams
Is the face that I see in the mirror
The one I want others to see
Do I show in the way that I walk in my life
The love that You’ve shown me
My heart’s desire is to be like You
In all that I do, all I am
Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize Your face
Do I communicate Your love and Your grace
Do I reflect who You are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus in me
It’s amazing that You’d ever use me
But use me the way You will
Help me to hold out a heart of compassionate grace
A heart that You’re spirit fills
May I show forgiveness and mercy
The same way you’ve shown it to me
Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize Your face
Do I communicate Your love and Your grace
Do I reflect who You are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus in me
Now I want to show all the world who You are
The reason I live and breathe
So You’ll be the One that they see
When they see me
Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize Your face
Do I communicate Your love and Your grace
Do I reflect who You are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus in me
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On Trial

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*If you were on trial for being a Christian would there be enough evidence to convict you?*

 

I heard a variation of  this question years ago for the first time and it’s remained with me.

It always gets me to thinking about my relationship with God.

If I was arrested today for being a Christian, would there be enough evidence to convict me?

Do people see Christ in me throughout my every day life or am I just going through the motions?

Matthew 7:21-23 says:

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

I don’t know about you but that passage has always frightened me. To have God turn to you and tell you He never knew you? Talk about scary!

I’m going to be raw here for a moment. Here is an excerpt from my prayer journal:

Am I living a life that pleases You, God? Or am I just trying to work my way into Heaven? I want to be a soul on fire for You! I want to glorify You in all I say and do.

Why is having a relationship with You so difficult for me sometimes? Why do I struggle with this?

Have I truly given my life to You? Is this Satan’s way of attacking me?

I long to live a life that glorifies God.  I want people to see me on the streets and think to themselves, “There’s something different about her.”

Satan definitely knows my weaknesses and is using them against me. I came across a great quote one day that helps me when I battle Satan like this:

There would be no inner battle if we were truly lost.

So on days like today when I’m “doubting my salvation”, I just read this quote and it reminds me that I AM saved. Satan is just trying his level best to make me believe otherwise.

Another quote I came across and I have hanging up in my room is this:

One of the key ways you can tell you’re saved is when your faith is continually leading you towards repentance and Jesus is continually bringing about change.

Matt Chandler

(I’m struggling with the putting words into sentences today (stupid Fibro fog) so if any of this sounds off, I’m sorry.)

Would there be enough evidence to convict you if you were arrested for being a Christian?

 

 

 

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Romans 12:9

 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.

Romans 12:9

We are called to love others as Christ loves us. Seems easier said than done, right? Some people are just really difficult to love. Maybe they’ve hurt you so many times in the past that loving them seems impossible. But Christ tells us that we are to love them. He loves them so we must love them.

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.

John 13:34

We are commanded to love others.

So if you are having trouble loving certain people (and I’m including myself in this) just turn to Jesus who can help you. The closer you grow and walk with Him, the more His love will shine through you towards others.

 

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. – Romans 12:9 ESV #Scripture #Bible #BibleVerse #GodsWord #FCinspiration #Love #GodsLove

Posted in 2018, christianity, Faith, forgiveness, grace, love

The Debt Eraser

See the source imageMy devotional reading was in Psalm 103:1-12 this morning. I use Our Daily Bread as a devotional and the title of it was “The Debt Eraser”

“Once forgiven, we aren’t defined by or limited by our past debt.”

HE FORGETS OUR SIN!

He removes our sin “as far as the east is from the west!”

Isn’t that wonderful to know and experience?

 

 

 

Posted in 2018, adhd, bipolar, christianity, Faith, Jesus, love

Single but Not Alone

See the source imageI will be 35 in June (yuck) and I’m single. 10 years ago this would have bothered me. But as I grow closer to the Lord I have realized that I don’t need anyone BUT God.

10 years ago I was in a relationship that didn’t end well. He essentially broke up with me because of my bipolar disorder. He said he couldn’t handle it anymore. I remember looking at him and crying, “You don’t have to handle this. I have to deal with this the rest of my life. I just need you to BE there for me.”

Nope, he ran. But you know what I said? Fine. And I moved on without him. I haven’t had a relationship since.  Honestly, I have moments, small moments when I wonder if I’ll ever find someone but then I spend time with God and it all goes away. I am content being single. God fills that void.

If I’m being honest, I will say this: I am very self-conscious about my appearance. See, I have very bad dental problems due to my medications causing tooth decay. Fibromyalgia also contributes to my dental problems Half my teeth are falling out. Therefore, I don’t smile much and when I do it’s a closed mouth smile. If something makes me laugh I cover my mouth with my hand. I WILL NOT take pictures anymore because I just can’t stand to look at myself. I have to get dentures but I can’t afford them since I don’t have a job or dental insurance. (Anyone wanna start a GoFundMe page? I’m KIDDING!)

I think that’s the biggest reason why I don’t put myself out there and try to find someone.

I’ve accepted that this is how I am, this is how I look and everything else doesn’t matter.

GOD is all I need and I’m going to spend as much time with Him as I can and in the meantime, if He has someone planned for me, and I meet him, then so be it! But I’m not looking actively for anyone because I want God first in my life. Maybe I’ll be single forever, like Paul was. Maybe I’m not meant to have a significant other because it’ll be a distraction for me. And as we all know, I get distracted pretty easily. (Stupid ADD)

See the source imageI will say this again: God has great plans for me….for YOU….for everyone! If only we would stop, be still and listen to His voice. He’s calling for you and for me……NOTHING can change God’s love for you. 🙂

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100

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My last blog post was blog entry #100! WordPress notified me of that today. So I went and checked my stats and since I started this blog I have received over 1300 views and have had over 600 visitors! Pretty cool.

BUT!!!!…

My hope is that my blog is bringing glory to God. I don’t want to be blogging for the wrong reasons…..such as getting recognition for achieving blogging milestones.

Image result for jesus loves youI want people to know that there is a God that LOVES them! There is a God that has great plans for His people! If only we would turn to Him.

I’ve met some pretty cool people on WordPress who genuinely love the Lord and strive to live for Him every day! One of my favorite blogs to visit is: A Fractured Faith. Stephen is a really nice guy with a wonderful family. His blogs are so encouraging and lift me up. I encourage you to check out his blog. 🙂

I’m so glad I decided to start blogging again. I’ve actually had this site for many years but never really posted much. It wasn’t until I got serious about my faith that I got back into blogging and then I realized it was a great platform to share my faith. AND to meet new people who share my love of God. It’s pretty cool!

See the source imageIn the end, I want this blog to reach as many people as possible who may not know the Lord. And I want people to know that I am NOT ashamed of the Lord and I am PROUD to be a Christian. 🙂

Verse of the day: Romans 1:16

“For I am not ashamed of the gospel because it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes….”

 

Posted in bipolar, christianity, Faith, fear, forgiveness, grace, Jesus, love, mental disorders

Being Bipolar

I have suffered from a mental illness since I was 17. I was diagnosed with severe depression/anxiety in my senior year of high school. However, 8 years later I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and after learning about the disorder suddenly I realized I had been bipolar since I was 17. All my erratic behaviors and mood swings totally made sense after the bipolar diagnosis.

It wasn’t long after my initial diagnosis of depression that I became a cutter. I cut because it made the mental pain go away. I cut because in a sick, twisted way it made me feel better. I wasn’t a Christian at this point despite having grown up in church. I was so lost, so out of it. I just didn’t want to live anymore. So I began cutting more and more. But I never got as far as cutting to end my life. But I had the tendencies. So my family placed me in the hospital. I spent a week there and was placed on medication.

I came home. The medication made me numb. I didn’t feel depressed anymore but I didn’t feel happy either. I was a zombie. So they changed my medication. It made things a little better, I guess.

Fast forward to March of 2003. I was home on break from college. I was at church listening to an evangelist speak. And that was the day I gave my life to the Lord. He made a statement that has stayed with me to this very day:

You can be 99% sure (about being saved) but you’re still 100% lost.

I knew immediately that despite my years of church going…despite me attending a Bible college….despite all the head knowledge….I didn’t have the heart knowledge. I was lost. I was a sinner. I needed God’s grace. And so I gave my life to the Lord. Now don’t get me wrong….just because I was now a Christian didn’t mean all my troubles went away…..it doesn’t work like that. But I now had Someone who would always be there and always help me through the problems.

Fast forward to January 2008. I had fallen back into a deep depression. It was miserable. I hated life. I wasn’t where I needed to be with my walk with God. I had backslidden. My feelings were starting to scare me so I decided to check myself into a hospital to get help. It wasn’t easy and I had second thoughts once I got there. I tried to leave but I wasn’t able to.  And I’m glad I didn’t. I got the help I needed and I got the correct diagnosis: I was bipolar. Suddenly it just all made sense.

I was put on a medication specifically for bipolar and then other medications for the depression and anxiety.

What is like to be bipolar? Well for me I get agitated super easily, when I’m having an episode I’ll tend to go on mini shopping sprees with what little money I have. I have a hard time sitting still (I’m ADD as well). My moods will be everywhere. I can be super happy about something and then be triggered and get down very very quickly. Being around me during an episode is not really easy for people. And I don’t blame them. I tend to try to keep to myself when I’m having an episode so I don’t make others miserable.

But I found God again. I got back on track with Him. But then I fell again. And again. Until finally in July of 2017….5 months ago….I fell in love with Jesus. I got on my knees and I prayed to Him and confessed all my problems, all my sins and just laid it down before Him and I finally got serious about God. For the first time since my initial salvation in 2003.

Is it hard being a bipolar Christian? Yes. Yes, it’s extremely hard and I struggle with it every single day. Some days are harder than others. But I know that God is with me. God has my back. God’s got great plans for me.

I just can’t wait to find out what they are!

 

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Weird

Weird is the next book on my list. I seriously love Craig Groeschel’s books! He has a way of grabbing your attention just like Kyle Idleman does in his books. I know, I know. I’ve compared Groeschel to Idleman already but I can’t help it. lol. Anyway, here is a synopsis of the book:

“Normal people are stressed, overwhelmed, and exhausted. Many of their relationships are, at best, strained and, in most cases, just surviving. Even though we live in one of the most prosperous places on earth, normal is still living paycheck to paycheck and never getting ahead. In our oversexed world, lust, premarital sex, guilt, and shame are far more common than purity, virginity, and a healthy married sex life. And when it comes to God, the majority believe in him, but the teachings of scripture rarely make it into their everyday lives.Simply put, normal isn’t working. Groeschel’s WEIRD views will help you break free from the norm to lead a radically abnormal (and endlessly more fulfilling) life.”

I want to be “weird!” (alright, I already AM weird in a lot of ways, haha but I definitely want to have these “weird views!”)


On another note: Tomorrow is Christmas Eve! How crazy fast has this year gone by? 2017 is almost gone.  I turn 35 in 2018. 35! What is even happening? Time is flying by!

I need to start thinking of goals I want to accomplish in this next year. Maybe I’ll make that a blog post for another time. 🙂

 

Verse of the day:

“Therefore the Lord Himself shall give you a sign; Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.” Isaiah 7:14

Merry Christmas you guys! And Happy New Year!