Even At My Worst

I heard this song, “Even At My Worst” by Blanca the other day for the first time.

I know I’ve “heard” this song before….driving with the radio on and I’m sure it’s played but I wasn’t “listening.”

Until the other day when God opened my ears and I LISTENED to the words.

If I’m being honest
I didn’t think You’d stay with all my problems
I was so afraid that when you saw them
You would turn your back on me and leave
‘Cause in the silence
My insecurities are like a siren
Taking over me, and I can’t hide them
Even then you see the best in me that I can’t see

Even at my worst, you love me
You wrap your arms around and you hold me close
Even at my worst, you give something I don’t deserve
You love me even at my worst

Blanca, “Even at My Worst”

I have problems. You have problems. We ALL have problems in this temporary world we call “life.” Guess what? God still loves us. He loves us despite all our issues.

He LOVES us! HE loves US! He loved us enough to send His only Son into the world to redeem us and to die on the cross for us. Sinners, we are. Sinners, we were born. And guess what? He still love us.

Even at our worst….

Have Thine Own Way, Lord

We sing this hymn a lot in my church and sometimes I think we just mindlessly sing it without truly receiving the message. I know I’ve been guilty of it. But if you truly listen to the lyrics, they’re beautiful. And powerful.

God knows exactly what’s best for us and in His time we will receive it. We must trust Him completely. He will never fail us. He will never leave us, nor forsake us. We can rest in his promises because they are true and never failing. He will never break His promise.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”

Isaiah 40:29

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

Jeremiah 29:11

All we have to do is trust in Him. He WILL take care of us. 🙂

Photo by Ben White on Unsplash

Jim Reeves

Have Thine own way Lord
Have Thine own way
Thou art the potter I am the clay
Mold me and make me after Thy will
While I am waiting yielded and still

Have Thine own way Lord
Have Thine own way
Search me and try me Master today
Whiter than snow Lord wash me just now
As in Thy presence humbly I bow

Have Thine own way Lord
Have Thine own way
Hold over my being absolute sway
Filled with Thy spirit till all can see
Christ only always living in me

Thy Will

It’s Saturday! Time for some song lyrics!

This song, Thy Will by Hillary Scott, has a lot of meaning.

So many times we just don’t understand why God allows things to happen. But God has a plan to use bad things for good. We just have to wait on Him.

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalm 37:7

Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God.
I Corinthians 4:5

Waiting has never been one of my strong suits. I get impatient very easily. (I’m slowly working on it though. Patience IS one of the fruits of the Spirit, after all.)

For instance, I am currently waiting on something that I’ve been praying about for quite some time now. I have reached the point where I’m getting impatient and want the answer NOW! But God has His reasons for not answering it just yet. I am learning to accept that in HIS time I will have my answer.

I came across some verses that really opened my eyes this morning. It’s found in the book of Lamentations 3:24-26

I say to myself, the Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him. It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

The Lord is all I will ever need!

Hillary Scott-video

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not
So

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store

So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

Fly Away

I decided last night that I was going to reread the Left Behind series. It’s a great series to read. I recommend reading them if you haven’t already. And even if you have, why not reread them?

I find myself thinking about the Second Coming a lot lately. I can’t WAIT!

¹⁶ For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. ¹⁷ After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.

1 Thessalonians 4:16-17

Sometimes I find myself daydreaming of what it would be like to hear that trumpet call! This song by FFH is one of my favorites. Definitely gets you to thinking about what it would be like!

FFH-Fly Away

Okay you win, you caught me daydreaming again
About our sudden evacuation
Okay I give in, I can’t help but wondering
But it seems I can’t get enough information

Curiosity has got a hold of me
Tell me how it’s gonna be-when

One day I’ll see you coming back for me
And all together we’ll fly away yeah
One day I’ll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we’ll fly away
Oh how I long for the day
When we’ll fly away

Don’t ask me why I keep starin’ at the sky
It’s just I’m lost in anticipation
I know it will be in the twinkling of an eye
It’s just I get lost in my imagination

Curiosity has got a hold of me
Tell me how it’s gonna be-when

One day I’ll see you coming back for me
And all together we’ll fly away yeah
One day I’ll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we’ll fly away

Oh how I long for the day
When we’ll fly away

Yeah, yeah, we’ll fly away

Curiosity has got a hold of me
Tell me how it’s gonna be-when
One day I’ll see you coming back for me
And all together we’ll fly away yeah
One day I’ll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we’ll fly away
Oh how I long for the day
When we’ll fly away

Curiosity has got a hold of me
Tell me how it’s gonna be-when
One day I’ll see you coming back for me
And all together we’ll fly away yeah
One day I’ll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we’ll fly away
Oh how I long for the day
When we’ll fly away

Curiosity has got a hold of me
Tell me how it’s gonna be-when
One day I’ll see you coming back for me
And all together we’ll fly away yeah
One day I’ll hear that trumpet loud and clear
And all together we’ll fly away
Oh how I long for the day
When we’ll fly away

Yeah, yeah, we’ll fly away
Yeah, yeah, we’ll fly away
Yeah, yeah, we’ll fly away

 

Grace Wins

Another song that really speaks to me is Grace Wins by Matthew West. My favorite line is definitely “But I’m living proof grace wins every time.”

None of us deserves God’s grace. We’re sinners, each and every one of us. But God loves us so much that He couldn’t bear us dying in our sins so He sent His one and only Son to die in our place.

In my weakest moment I see You
Shaking Your head in disgrace
I can read the disappointment
Written all over Your face

Here come those whispers in my ear
Saying, “who do you think you are?”
Looks like you’re on your own from here
‘Cause grace could never reach that far

But in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear You call my name saying it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat so loud now
Drowning out the doubt
I’m down, but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time
No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing, hallelujah
Grace wins every time

Words can’t describe the way it feels
When mercy floods a thirsty soul
The broke inside begins to heal
And grace returns what guilty stole

And in the shadow of that shame
Beat down by all the blame
I hear You call my name saying it’s not over
And my heart starts to beat so loud now
Drowning out the doubt
I’m down, but I’m not out

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time
No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing, hallelujah
Grace wins every time

For the prodigal son
Grace wins
For the woman at the well
Grace wins
For the blind man and the beggar
Grace wins
For always and forever
Grace wins
For the lost out on the streets
Grace wins
For the worst part of you and me
Grace wins
For the thief on the cross
Grace wins
For a world that is lost

There’s a war between guilt and grace
And they’re fighting for a sacred space
But I’m living proof
Grace wins every time
No more lying down in death’s defeat
Now I’m rising up in victory
Singing, hallelujah
Grace wins every time, every time
Yeah, I’m living proof
Grace wins every time

He Knows My Name

I’ve always loved this song but I’d never seen the video for it until today. I strongly encourage you to watch it. It’s about 12 minutes long but it’s totally worth it.

Francesca Battistelli-video

Spent today in a conversation
In the mirror face to face with
Somebody less than perfect
I wouldn’t choose me first if
I was looking for a champion
In fact, I’d understand if
You picked everyone before me
But that’s just not my story
True to who You are
You saw my heart
And made
Something out of nothing

I don’t need my name in lights
I’m famous in my Father’s eyes
Make no mistake
He knows my name
I’m not living for applause
I’m already so adored
It’s all His stage
He knows my name oh, oh,
He knows my name oh, oh

I’m not meant to just stay quiet
I’m meant to be a lion
I’ll roar beyond a song
With every moment that I’ve got
True to who You are
You saw my heart
And made
Something out of nothing

I don’t need my name in lights
I’m famous in my Father’s eyes
Make no mistake
He knows my name
I’m not living for applause
I’m already so adored
It’s all His stage
He knows my name oh, oh,
He knows my name oh, oh

He calls me chosen, free forgiven, wanted, child of the King
His forever, held in treasure
I am loved

I don’t need my name in lights
I’m famous in my Father’s eyes

I don’t need my name in lights
I’m famous in my Father’s eyes
Make no mistake
He knows my name
I’m not living for applause
I’m already so adored
It’s all His stage
He knows my name
He knows my name oh, oh
He knows my name

God Is On The Move

I have a special unspoken prayer request that I’d like you all to pray for. I can’t go into detail but God knows the need.

Please just pray for wisdom and guidance in the situation.

God Is on the Move

7eventh Time Down-video

Any time a heart turns from darkness to light
Anytime temptation comes and someone stands to fight
Anytime somebody lives to serve and not be served

I know, I know, I know, I know
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
In many mighty ways
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
On the move today

Anytime in weakness, someone falls upon their knees
Or dares to speak the truth that sets men free
Anytime the choice is made to stand upon the Word

I know, I know, I know, I know
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
In many mighty ways
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
On the move today

I see your generation standing on the truth
In each and every day saying God is on the move
Anytime the Gospel stirs a searching souls
And someone says “send me, here I go”

I know, I know, I know, I know
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
In many mighty ways
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
On the move today

God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
In many mighty ways
God is on the move, on the move
Hallelujah
God is on the move
On the move today

I see your generation standing on the truth
In each and every day saying God is on the move

Saturday Song Lyrics

I love this song so much and the meaning behind it. I’m so tired of trying to do things MY way. I’m tired of “fighting God” so I’m not going to do it anymore. 🙂

Fight

Point of Grace

How clever is my pride, how it deceives my mind
To think I am in control when I have really lost it all
How brilliant is my greed for what it says I need
And then I’ve come to find I’m empty on the inside

Real, my heart is aching to be real
So I am coming to You

All my broken motives, all my selfish dreams
All of my foolishness now I understand where it leads
I wanna be in Your love, I wanna be so much more
I know You’re reaching out so what am I fighting You for
So what am I fighting You for

How quick is my doubt to leave my heart without
The presence of Your peace so that I scarce believe
How pardoned is my guilt to crush the life You built
And to keep me far away from any kind of shame

Real, my heart is aching to be real
So I am coming to You

All my broken motives, all my selfish dreams
All of my foolishness now I understand where it leads
I wanna be in Your love, I wanna be so much more
I know You’re reaching out so what am I fighting You for

‘Cause only You can save me
And only You can change me
And only You can love me
Here I come, here I come
So I come to You

All my broken motives, all my selfish dreams
All of my foolishness ’cause I understand where it leads
I wanna be in Your love, I wanna be so much more
I know You’re reaching out so what am I fighting You

All my broken motives, all my selfish dreams
All of my foolishness now I understand where it leads
I wanna be in Your love, I wanna be so much more
I know You’re reaching out I don’t wanna fight anymore

I don’t wanna fight anymore
I don’t wanna fight anymore
I don’t wanna fight anymore
I don’t wanna fight

Here I Am Anyway

Y’all! This song! I had never really listened to it until just now and the lyrics are powerful. Definitely had to share with you all! The link to hear the song is down at the bottom! 🙂

 

“Here I Am Anyway”
Josh Wilson

I’m like Moses in the desert
When that bush went up in flames
You said, “Go and tell your story”
He said, “God, what will I say?
I’m so scared, unprepared
What difference will I make?”
Sometimes I feel the same

If it’s weakness that You want
I’ve got more than enough
But some days I am so afraid
To show this world your love
But I’ll give You all of me
And my insecurities
God, I don’t have what it takes
But here I am anyway
Here I am anyway

God, I’ve got so many questions
Wonder why You placed me here
You have given me these passions
But they come with so much fear
Sometimes it don’t make sense at all
But I guess if I was brave
Then I wouldn’t walk by faith

If it’s weakness that You want
I’ve got more than enough
But some days I am so afraid
To show this world your love
But I’ll give You all of me
And my insecurities
God, I don’t have what it takes
But here I am anyway
Here I am anyway

If You say go (If You say go, if You say go)
I won’t say no (I won’t say no, I won’t say no)
If You say go (If You say go, if You say go)
I won’t say no (I won’t say no, I won’t say no)

‘Cause it’s weakness that You want
That’s how You show Your love
Your power is made perfect
When we are not enough

If it’s weakness that You want
I’ve got more than enough
But some days I am so afraid
To show this world your love
But I’ll give You all of me
And my insecurities
God, I don’t have what it takes
But here I am anyway
Here I am anyway
Here I am anyway, anyway
Here I am anyway, anyway

Listen to the song here

Song Lyrics Saturday

This coming April 20th, it will have been 19 years since the Columbine massacre that took so many lives.

Michael W Smith is one of my favorite artists and he wrote this song, I believe, about Cassie Bernall, one of the victims. It could also pertain to Rachel Joy Scott as well.

Faced with the choice to deny God and live, these two girls boldly said YES they believed in God and then were killed.

This song has so much meaning. Please take the time to read the lyrics and then listen to the song.

 

This Is Your Time
Michael W Smith

It was a test we could all hope to pass
But none of us would want to take
Faced with the choice to deny God and live
For her, there was one choice to make

This was her time
This was her dance
She lived every moment
Left nothing to chance
She swam in the sea
Drank of the deep
Embraced the mystery
Of all, she could be
This was her time

Though you are mourning and grieving your loss,
Death died a long time ago
Swallowed in life, so her life carries on
Still, it’s so hard to let go

This was her time
This was her dance
She lived every moment
Left nothing to chance
She swam in the sea
Drank of the deep
Embraced the mystery
Of all she could be
What if tomorrow
What if today
Faced with the question
Oh, what would you say

This is your time
This is your dance
Live every moment
Leave nothing to chance
Swim in the sea
Drink of the deep
And fall on the mercy
And hear yourself praying
Won’t you save me
Won’t you save me

This is your time
This is your dance
Live every moment
Leave nothing to chance
Swim in the sea
Drink of the deep
Embrace the mystery of all you can be
[Repeat]
This is your time