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Hey y’all! I have a favor to ask.

I’ve been struggling with really bad teeth for years. I’m never going to be able to afford dentures so I decided to ask for help by creating a GoFund Me page. It took me some time to gather the courage to create and share this page because honestly? I feel it’s selfish. But I’m desperate now. Bad teeth can lead to other health issues.

Due to soft teeth and multiple medications that cause tooth decay, my mouth is full of broken and decayed teeth.

I hate smiling because I’m so embarrassed of my teeth.

I am asking for your help in sharing this page and maybe consider donating if you can.

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Not Completely Back But I Will Be Soon!!

Hey y’all!!!

Long time no write!!

For those of you wondering about my absence, I had foot surgery on October 23rd and have been recovering. I’m on crutches and in a boot until around the 8th of December. I can’t sit at my desk very long because I have to keep my foot elevated as much as possible. I have a laptop but it needs maintenance and I can’t afford it right now. I am out of work until January.

I just wanted to hop on here and say hey!! I’m starting to work on some blog topics and hope to be back on here soon!!

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Fibro Flare Up

I’ve been feeling off lately. My body just doesn’t want to cooperate. Costochondritis (An inflammation of the cartilage that connects a rib to the breastbone.) reared it’s ugly head last week which almost ALWAYS indicates a flare up is in my near future. And yes, it started showing up earlier this week.

It also doesn’t help that there are not one but TWO systems moving in our direction. Whenever it gets rainy and dreary, my body practically screams at me. I woke up this morning and immediately knew it was going to be one of those days. I felt it in my bones before I even got out of bed. I had to call out at work because there was no way I was going to be able to stand on my feet for 5 hours.

Have any of y’all heard of Adrian Rogers? I had heard the name before but I recently have really gotten into his sermons that you can find at He has really great sermons, including a series he preached on the book of Revelation. He sadly passed away back in 2005. But he has left a legacy!

This particular sermon really stepped on my toes and got me to thinking about how I’m living.

Check it out!

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19 Years Ago….

September 11th. I remember it like it was yesterday….as I’m sure all of you feel the same. I was taking classes at my community college. I had Psychology that day at 11 so I was so excited to be able to sleep in. However, my mom called me from work around 8:45 or so and told me to turn on the TV. I literally had just turned it on and was in shock at what I was seeing and then I saw the second plane hit. I was rendered speechless! I didn’t know what was going on!

I got to my class and the professor sort of hesitated before speaking and then just told us “class dismissed. I can’t teach you while our world is under attack. It’s too surreal.”

I haven’t written a poem in quite some time….I used to write them all the time. I could pop them out round the clock! But then I stopped. I guess I lost my creativity for awhile.

So please don’t be too harsh with this poem. I wanted to write….to express my feelings about the anniversary of September 11th. #neverforget

19 Years Ago

19 years ago our world was forever changed
19 years ago nothing would ever be the same
19 years ago we watched in horror
As the buildings came tumbling down

Thousands of people
Going about their morning
Unaware of was what about to happen
Unaware of the evil about to take place

So much evil
so much hate
When will this end
or is it too late?

Where were you
when our nation was attacked?
Where were you
When our freedom was threatened?

Were you sitting in a classroom
Confused at what you were seeing?
The horror of it all unraveling
As you tried to take it in?

Or perhaps you were at home
Maybe sipping your morning coffee
You turned on your TV
Just in time to see the second plane…

The world stopped moving
That Tuesday morning…
But it also brought us together
Determined to pick up the pieces
Determined to rise up

September 11, 2001
Forever etched in our minds
Forever in our heart.

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Reblog: To My Non-Christian Friends — Onword and Upwords by Dennis Brady

In my heart of hearts I truly believe that Jesus is returning for His Church soon and it burdens me that you will be left behind in the resulting world. You’ll still have a chance to repent and accept Christ during the following tribulation days, but it will be unbearably hard to keep the faith […]

To My Non-Christian Friends — Onword and Upwords by Dennis Brady
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Living in the Past

I have a bad habit you guys. (Don’t we all?)

I don’t know about you but I have a really bad tendency to focus on my past. My regrets. My heartache. My disappointments. My failures. You get the picture. I find myself wallowing in what could have been, in what I should have done or said. But what’s the point?

Why do we do that? Why do we look at our failures and mistakes and live in them? What’s that going to do? Absolutely nothing except make us miserable and depressed.

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It’s hard to forget the past sometimes. I get it. I have so many regrets. We all do. But I have to believe I wouldn’t be where I am today without those regrets. I have learned from those mistakes. And it’s made me a better person. Does that make sense?

Read what Paul has to say in Philippians 3:13-14, “No dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it but I focus on this one thing: forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead. I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.”

When we become Christians, our new life begins! We shouldn’t be looking to our past!

Paul reminds us of this in 2 Corinthians 5:17,

“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!”

Don’t let your past define you. It’s not who you are. You are much more than your past mistakes. You are a child of God and you are LOVED!

Satan LOVES to drudge up whatever he can to make us miserable. Don’t let him.

Don’t allow Satan to rob you of your future by making you live in your past.

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The Single Life

I have been single since 2008 (wow, 12 years?) I haven’t even gone out on a date.

(eh, don’t feel sorry for me! I’ve embraced the single life and I’m content. If God chooses to send someone my way, then okay! But if decides I am to remain single then so be it.)

As Paul says in 1 Corinthians 7, “So I say to those who aren’t married and to widows–its better to stay unmarried, just as I am.”(1Corinthians 7:8, NLT)

Paul was saying that it’s better to remain single because of the opportunities it provides to serve Christ with no distractions.

I want you to be free from the concerns of this life. An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord’s work and thinking how to please him. But a married man has to think about his earthly responsibilities and how to please his wife. His interests are divided. In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit. But a married woman has to think about her earthly responsibilities and how to please her husband. I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.

1 Corinthians 7:32-35

Not being married, I’m able to do things without the distraction of a husband and children and taking care of them. I can devote more time to serving the Lord.

I am 37 and I’m single. 10 years ago this would have bothered me. But as I grow closer to the Lord I have realized that I don’t need anyone BUT God.

12 years ago I was in a relationship that didn’t end well. He essentially broke up with me because of my bipolar disorder. He said he couldn’t handle it anymore. I remember looking at him and crying, “You don’t have to handle this. I have to deal with this the rest of my life. I just need you to BE there for me.”

Nope, he ran. But you know what I said? Fine. And I moved on without him. I haven’t had a relationship since.  Honestly, I have moments, small moments when I wonder if I’ll ever find someone but then I spend time with God and it all goes away. I am content being single. God fills that void.

If I’m being honest, I will say this: I am very self-conscious about my appearance. See, I have very bad dental problems due to my medications causing tooth decay. Fibromyalgia also contributes to my dental problems Half my teeth are falling out. Therefore, I don’t smile much and when I do it’s a closed mouth smile. (One benefit from wearing a mask these days, LOL) If something makes me laugh I cover my mouth with my hand. I WILL NOT take pictures anymore because I just can’t stand to look at myself. I have to get dentures but I can’t afford them since I don’t have a job or dental insurance. (Anyone wanna start a GoFundMe page? I’m KIDDING!)

I think that’s the biggest reason why I don’t put myself out there and try to find someone.

I’ve accepted that this is how I am, this is how I look and everything else doesn’t matter.

GOD is all I need and I’m going to spend as much time with Him as I can and in the meantime, if He has someone planned for me, and I meet him, then so be it! But I’m not looking actively for anyone because I want God first in my life. Maybe I’ll be single forever, like Paul was. Maybe I’m not meant to have a significant other because it’ll be a distraction for me. And as we all know, I get distracted pretty easily. (Stupid ADD)

I will say this again: God has great plans for me….for YOU….for everyone! If only we would stop, be still and listen to His voice. He’s calling for you and for me……NOTHING can change God’s love for you. 🙂

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In Person or On Paper?

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Okay so I am not the best when it comes to confrontation. I tend to avoid it like the plague. I just hate it. I get all flustered and red faced, my anger rears it ugly side. And I don’t know about you but my anger seems to be hardwired to my tear ducts. Seriously! The minute I get super frustrated or angry, here come the waterworks!! Dude, seriously…stop. So if you ever see me bawling my eyes out….it’s probably because I’m angry not sad. LOL

SOOO…with that said I have a question for you all. To avoid confrontation and to hopefully diffuse a situation before it gets worse, would you rather write them a letter?

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I am the type of person who expresses my feelings much better through the written word. When I’m forced to have a super serious talk in person, I clam up, I get flustered and turn all red in the face. (Plus it doesn’t help that in the past couple of years I’ve developed this…..I have no idea what to call it…..a tic when speaking? When I am talking, sometimes it’s as if my brain and my mouth have decided to stop communicating and I get flustered and my voice “catches?” on a certain word…. Y’ALL I CANNOT EXPLAIN IT! I don’t understand how to describe it but it’s just annoying as heck. )

So let me ask you all….how do you deal with confrontation? Especially if you, like me, are an introvert and can’t stand confrontation?

Also, could you share some bible verses or quotes that help a person get through confrontational times?

On Paper?

In Person?

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What Will Following Christ Cost You?

In my devotions I’m reading about the cost of following Jesus.

In Luke 14:25-33 it says,

A large crowd was following Jesus. He turned around and said to them, “If you want to be my disciple, you must, by comparison, hate everyone else—your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple. And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple. “But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it? Otherwise, you might complete only the foundation before running out of money, and then everyone would laugh at you. They would say, ‘There’s the person who started that building and couldn’t afford to finish it!’ “Or what king would go to war against another king without first sitting down with his counselors to discuss whether his army of 10,000 could defeat the 20,000 soldiers marching against him? And if he can’t, he will send a delegation to discuss terms of peace while the enemy is still far away. So you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own.

Luke 14:25-33

Counting the Cost

Before I got serious about Christ, I always had an issue with the verse talking about hating our parents, our family, etc…To me it just didn’t make sense that Christ would ask us to do that. How was I to hate my family? I mean…it’s my family!

However, as I started studying and really getting to know the Lord, and after discussions with others…it dawned on me. Jesus isn’t calling us to literally hate our loved ones. No, He’s just asking that our love for them and even our own life not compete with devotion to Him.

He’s asking to be #1. Our ONLY #1. No competition, no battling it out. Following Jesus requires complete dedication.

So what does it cost to follow Jesus?


“So you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own.” (Luke 14:33 NLT)


Discipleship is about following Christ and making new disciples. It’s about being invested in following the Great Commission that Jesus set before us. We as Christians are called to make more disciples, to build relationships with others and teach them the Word of God  and what it says.

Discipleship is about growing in the Lord and having a close relationship with Him all the while teaching others how to have the same type of relationship.

Discipleship is about carrying on the ministry of Jesus Christ.

Bearing Our Cross

Jesus tells us we must pick up our own cross and follow him daily. Not just when we feel like it. Not just when the time is right. But daily. As in, all the time. Every single day.

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?

Matthew 16:24-26 (NIV)

Will following Jesus be hard? Absolutely.

Will it be worth it? Totally.

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This Edition of Writer’s Block Just. Won’t. Leave.

Okay, so do y’all remember that song that went like this:

“This is the song that doesn’t end.
Yes, it goes on and on, my friends.
Some people started singing it not knowing what it was and they’ll continue singing it forever just because…”

and then the song would repeat over and over for as long as you felt like singing it or until someone smacked you upside the head for singing it.

It got stuck in your head just now, hasn’t it? My apologies. LOL

But I’m suffering from the worst case of writer’s block and that’s kind of how it feels. The writer’s block just doesn’t end. Yes, it goes on and on, my friends….

Writing used to be fun for me. It used to be a part of me.

And now it seems as if I’ve lost it. I’ve lost that piece of me that would write until my heart was content. I’ve lost that drive to write. I used to be able to knock out page after page of words. The words would just flow right on out.

When I was in high school, it was nothing for me to escape to my room after school and just bang out poem after poem. I don’t know how I did it, I just did.

I would LOVE to go back to that time…

As I’ve gotten older and as I’ve developed that dreaded “brain fog” that comes with the fibromyalgia and bipolar, I have discovered that my writing, to me that is, has become a useless mess of meaningless words.

I literally cannot think of what to write when my brain fog is kicking in full gear. I’ll sit at the computer or with a pen in hand and will attempt to write something clever, something that will catch my reader’s attention and…..nothing.

Writing has become a chore. It’s no longer fun for me and that hurts. I need it back. I need that part of me that would write to escape the realities of this world. (And with 2020 being the nuisance that it is, being able to escape would be GREAT!)

I know what some of you are going to say….”You’re overthinking it” (which is definitely possible, LOL) or “You’re trying too hard.” (again, a possibility.)


This edition of writer’s block just won’t go away. LOL